Yet Another Change
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Posted:Oct 28, 2007 11:46 am
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Things have been pretty interesting as of late. New opportunities have arisen and new desires have come to show their hands. I don't know what's going to happen over the course of the next few months, but it's the end of October, and I have still have yet to figure out any definite course of action, but I'm getting closer.
So I found out this week that Lauren has decided that she doesn't want to even see about me being thrown on their application (again) for fear of losing her place at the Armory Arts. That's completely understandable, and I respect her desire to get a grasp on her future. I just wish that I didn't have to find this decision out by having to question her on whether or not she even wants me to live with them. I was a little disappointed in that. I lost a week or two of figuring out a place to live that I can't get back.
I have decided that I have two options left, and I intend on looking at both. I can either transfer to a university, or I can find a second job and an inexpensive apartment to lease. I believe I have found a university I want to go to and a possible apartment building to live in. Roger has suggested that I apply to Arizona State University because his mom lives in Arizona, and I can room with him at Arizona State when he (hopefully) transfers for the Spring semester. That's my hope, as well. I am hoping that I get accepted in time to move for the Spring semester. The apartment building that I am currently looking into is the Mechanic Lofts in downtown that Andy had pointed out. They look like they should be right up my alley, as their 1 bedroom income limit is $25,000, and I fall short of that. Hopefully, my rent won't cost too much, and that could be an option.
If I do choose to live in an apartment however, I can't commit to a full year's lease because I DO want to transfer to a university. Obviously, Arizona State is high on my priority list. I want to get out of this state, and going to ASU with Roger would give me that opportunity, and I wouldn't have to be out of state by myself with knowing nobody. If I don't get into ASU, I'll probably stick fairly close to home at either WMU or CMU, most likely. I don't think I should have too much of a problem getting into ASU, but my grades from JCC aren't exactly stellar, and my JCS grades weren't much better.
Life is weird, scary, and exciting all at the same time. It sucks and is awesome. I'm not wanting to fully grow up, but I don't want to stay in this stage of limbo forever, either. I think I'm ready. I just hope that the world and others are ready for me.
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GOP Debates
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Posted:Oct 23, 2007 11:34 am
Last Updated:May 10, 2024 10:57 pm
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Well, I finally decided to follow the GOP debates for once. A friend of mine reminded me that they were going to be on, and I actually sat down to watch them. It didn't hurt that I watched them online, streaming from Faux News. There were only two candidates that really stood out, in my opinion, and those were Ron Paul and Mike Huckabee. Interestingly enough, those just happen to be the two candidates that I and my mom support, respectively.
The rest of the debate was mainly Guiliani, Romney, McCain, and Thompson entangled in a cat fight between the lot of them. It really was kind of pathetic, and they always managed to squeeze in how they are all "conservatives" and how they "respect" each other. It was quite pathetic, and I really couldn't get behind anything the four of them said. They all tried to justify bs, and they were all trying to pull some shit out of their asses saying that we need to preserve "marriage" as being between man and a woman for our 's sake. Right, because homosexuals and bisexuals are COMPLETELY incapable of raising . I mean, they're not human, right? How could they POSSIBLY know how to raise a ? Oh, wait…
Ron Paul got the most boos out of everybody else there. It was quite sickening. I mean, he was just being honest about how 70% of America wants our war in Iraq to end. He got boos from that, even though it's clearly statistically correct. Just because they didn't want to hear it, they were booing the man. The truth hurts, I know. He was also booed for pointing out that previous presidents have ran against being invasive in foreign policy. He mentioned that even Bush supported staying out of international affairs, and that's the way the party needs to go back to. The truth yet again? Boos for the truth? Yup, that's the Repugnant Party for you (not that the Democraps are any better).
I'm not going to go through everything that everybody was talking about. Truthfully, I only paid attention to a quarter of the debate because most of it was just stupid bullshit between the four front-runners. I tried to listen to them, but it was just so… pointless and arrogant and off in a stupid direction for America. As I said, the only two that were any impressive were Ron Paul and Mike Huckabee; the candidates that actually want change, and not just votes (though, they do, else they wouldn't be running).
One thing that I found hilarious was how the candidates (read: front-runners) were milking the audience for applauses by mentioning "Hillary" and "Hillary-care". Some of it was relevant, but for the most part it was just pointless to bring up. They were just trying to get positive reactions from the people for being against Hillary. Well, no shit. Every other candidate besides Hillary, herself, is running against Hillary. Let's try to focus on the issues, shall we
As far as the "winner" of the debate, hands down it was Ron Paul. That's not just me talking, either. Out of the text message votes that the candidates received, Ron Paul received 34%, Mike Huckabee received 25%, and the next was one of the idiot front-runners, Rudy Guiliani. I'll admit that most of the people who know how to text message aren't exactly the older generation, who probably would have sided more with Guiliani and the front-runners, but still… 34% is pretty impressive when there were 7 or more candidates debating, and he received over 1/3? That's a decisive victory.
In conclusion, Republicans suck complete ass, and Democrats are just that much worse. Vote Ron Paul or vote Libertarian. Either way, you're going with a viewpoint that's right for America and WILL bring about the change that's needed. Neither the Republicans or Democrats can do what a Libertarian could do, and that's promote respect and compassion WITHOUT the invasiveness of an overbearing and tyrannical government.
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Larger Penis = More Respect?
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Posted:Oct 16, 2007 8:39 am
Last Updated:Oct 16, 2007 10:00 am
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The notion that one's penis size being a reason for you to be respected more seems pretty ridiculous. However, it seems to be somewhat true in what I experienced last night.
On Thursday, my brother, friend, and I were drinking a little bit and discussing sexual desires and experiences, as you would expect from guys in our age group. One discussion led to another, and my brother expressed how he wants to have a second woman's opinion on his size due to the fact that he feels he's small and his girlfriend has only seen one dick (ie. his), and she's the only one to have seen his. I mention that I am confident in my size and the women I've been with seem to agree. I mention I've measured, and my brother admits to the same. Long story short, my brother mentions he's only about 6", and I mentioned that I was 8". Our friend said that he hasn't measured, but that he's on the smaller side of things.
What does this have to do with last night? Well, Monday nights are our golfing night, and the three of us plus another were golfing as a foursome. I hit a shot short of the green, and the fourth made a comment about how I'm used to being short. Without any provoking, my brother and friend came to my defense. Which, to be honest, quite shocked me. It wasn't coming to my defense to where they wanted to protect me from being ridiculed because they certainly don't hold back in other areas. It was just weird. It just felt like my dick size commanded some respect from them. It was an awkward moment, but I got a laugh out of it.
Most likely, I'm blowing this thing way out of proportion. It's not really all that important, but it is quite interesting to see what one's penis size does to get reactions out of those around you.
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Music of Today Sucks
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Posted:Oct 14, 2007 4:12 pm
Last Updated:Jun 10, 2012 7:28 pm
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Music has changed quite a bit over the years, and it has been for the worse. I cannot stand to listen to mainstream music anymore. Top 40 hits are just horrid. Just about everything on the Billboard 100 is , punk, punk-pop, pop, and emo bullshit. It's sad.
My problem with today's music isn't entirely about the sound. The sound is actually quite catchy. However, the fact that there is hardly any creativity in today's music that just makes it so annoying. Music is being mass produced and sold to young America. To make it famous, you have to have a sound that everybody likes. Everybody knows this, so music just tends to sound the same. There's no exploration into one's sound. It's what will sell records and tickets.
There are plenty of genres of today that I do hate, though. I cannot stand emo, screamo, metalcore, nu metal, pop, pop-punk, , and hardcore. To me, these genres not only share all of the same sound (in their respective genres), but they also sound horrible. These are genres that I can NEVER respect. There are genres that I dislike, but I can respect for the talent and creativity required to produce their styles of music, and those listed aren't it.
I used to like . That was shortly before it all started to invade the Top 40. Once it hit the Top 40, it all went to shit. Looking back, the music was never that great, but there is a clear difference before it was all you could hear on the Top 40 stations and when you could. I have respect for pre-2004 /hip-hop, but not anything after that.
Like I said, there are exceptions to this. I find that it takes great talent to produce today's metal. When I say metal, I mean metal, real metal. I'm not talking about hardcore, metalcore, and screamo that people try to pass off as metal. That's not metal. Metal is bands like Symphony X, Megadeth, Anthrax, Heathen, and many more. This is music of today that I can listen to, else I listen to older genres.
You take a look at yesterday's music, and you see a great variety of sounds and immense talent from artists. From Jazz to Soul to Motown to Hair Metal to Rock and Roll. These were the genres that demanded a lot from the artists and the artists performed. They captured our hearts and our souls. That was music. Not what you hear today. It's an insult to the real artists of yesterday.
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Pathetically Horny
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Posted:Oct 10, 2007 9:23 am
Last Updated:Oct 21, 2007 8:16 am
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I'm guessing one can mainly chalk it up to my age and being single that I would be so horny. I don't think I could disagree with that notion, but it still doesn't change the fact that I think it's a bit excessive.
Being recently single, and having two long distance relationships with sexual girlfriends and no sexual contact with them doesn't do much to help my libido when I'm single (like now). I've just been having this undying desire to get off, and I've been unable to do so.
I wonder if you can accumulate your hormones from the lack of sexual activity, like you get increasingly fatigued from a continuing lack of sleep until you regain that lost sleep. The answer seems a bit obvious to me, but I don't know of any studies done to support this idea. I guess that's always something I can research.
Either way, masturbation isn't and hasn't been cutting it for me. I know I can handle it, as I went for 2 solid years without it, but I want to avoid it at all costs. I'm continually coming out of my shell, so the more women I see, the more women I want to fuck, and the amount of sex I get still remains at a steady rate of 0.
Sure, bitching isn't going to do anything about it, but emailing women here isn't helping much, either. Oh well, all I can do is keep trying, and hope that I can connect with someone on here or locally.
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New Profile
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Posted:Oct 5, 2007 7:51 am
Last Updated:May 10, 2024 10:57 pm
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So, I've been wondering why I hadn't been getting any responses from women or couples. I was oblivious to the fact that my profile sucked until an online buddy mentioned it to me.
I made myself out to be lame, prudish about my intelligence, and anti-social. Hopefully, this new edit will breathe new life into the type of person i really am... someone who desires social interactivity, enjoys slamming back a few drinks, and just enjoying the people around me.
I still have some lame qualities to me, but they're being sweat out with all of this new social desire I have. Hopefully someone sees the potential in me, and I can finally get to have some fun. Only time shall tell.
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The Search and the Path Along the Way
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Posted:Oct 3, 2007 6:22 pm
Last Updated:Oct 23, 2007 11:36 am
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So if anybody has been following my blog (and I doubt anybody has), they'd know that I am newly single as of last night. It's always disappointing when that happens, whether the relationship lasts a month or a decade.
Now that the relationship is over, it's time for me to move on and find another relationship to try and turn into something lasting a life time. I know it may seem like it is too soon to be thinking like that, but the long distance relationship I got out of was going nowhere fast. We both are sexual people, and we were both longing for something local. We were just too stubborn to end it before last night.
It'll be interesting to see if I can find someone who matches me closely and lives close enough to me where I could see the person virtually every day. It doesn't sound like it should be too hard until you get to know the type of person I am. I am into politics, so having someone that shares my political views is a must. It's going to be quite the task to do so, as I'm strong into libertarianism. I don't agree with most Democrats, Republicans, Greens, or Moderates. That will cause an issue, since politics is very important to me.
Another issue is tastes in music. I know, it seems trivial, but I hold VERY strong opinions on what type of music I like. I don't have much respect for what I don't like, though there are some genres that I DO respect, but I am not incredibly fond of. Call me stupid for that, but it's the type of person I am, I guess.
Overall, I don't think I'll find someone I'm supposed to be with... at least, not for a while. So, in the meantime, I get to explore my sexual desires. Thanks to wonderful sites like this, I can try and pursue what I want. Not that I've had any luck, because I haven't, but there's always that chance.
I'm not sure what else there is to say other than that I'm babbling on about stuff most people don't care about, and I'm horny and desiring to fuck a nice, wet pussy. I'm just hoping I get the chance to do that. I've been desiring it for a while, and I've been SOL so far, but I'm hopeful that things will soon change.
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Newly Single and Looking
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Posted:Oct 2, 2007 5:48 pm
Last Updated:May 10, 2024 10:57 pm
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Long distance relationships have a way of not working themselves out. My latest relationship is now kaput thanks to 500 miles that separated me and her. I can't say that I didn't see this coming, but I didn't want it to happen. The distance was just too much.
I mean, how can you really call it a relationship when you're not able to be physical with someone? Sure, we love each other, and we didn't want it to end, but what can you expect from two sexual people? Not much, if you ask me.
What does this mean for me? I guess it means that I'm looking for a new relationship now, and get whatever I can in the mean time. I don't really have to "bounce back" from this one. It only lasted 2 months and a week, so it wasn't anything sustained for a long while. It actually falls short of the length of my first real relationship. At least, I won't end up hating this ex.
Now any women who are interested in me (though, numbered very low if any) don't have to worry about me going behind my girlfriend's back. I'm open for business again. Let the games begin...
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How Do I Measure Up?
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Posted:Sep 25, 2007 8:23 am
Last Updated:Sep 26, 2007 5:55 pm
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As we all know, guys have this obsession with how large their penis is, and where it measures up with other guys. Since about last week, I was wondering where exactly I lined up. I did a little research, and this is what I've found.
Much to my surprise, I am actually in a higher percentile than I had previously thought. I am in the 98.2 percentile in terms of penis length. At 8", I stand taller than 98% of the male population. I am quite proud to know that. Though, according to the study which supports this claim, I believe I've measured myself incorrectly, and I can actually be larger than the 8" I claim myself to be.
http://Affairlook.com
http://Affairlook.com
As for my girth, I'm above average, but I'm not quite in such a high percentile as I am for the length. I range anywhere from the 88-92 percentiles from what I can remember of when I last measured the circumference. I don't remember the exact measurement, so I'll probably have to remeasure when I have the chance.
Overall, I must say that I'm happy with my size. I wish I had a little more girth to go along with the length, since women tend to emphasize more on the girth rather than the length, but I haven't had any complaints in the bedroom, so I won't lose any sleep from not being thicker.
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Is Sex on the Side in Long Distance Relationships Cheating?
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Posted:Sep 25, 2007 7:45 am
Last Updated:Jun 18, 2008 10:34 am
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Is it cheating? I think it depends on the situation. If it's sex on the side purely for carnal pleasure, then it's just a more physical form of masturbation, really. If it's more than for just carnal pleasure, then I would definitely call it cheating.
With me being in another long distance relationship, I can't be physically with my girlfriend as much as I would like to be. Once I get my own place, that should change a decent amount, but for the time being, we're pretty much SOL. We both are sexual people, and there would be no shortage of sex if this were a local relationship. Unfortunately, that is not the case for us.
This situation leaves much to be desired. I still have the intellectual relationship with my girlfriend that I cherish. We have everything that a normal relationship has without the physical aspect to it. However, there is a way to fix the physical contact shortage.
The way to fix it would be to have the physical contact outside of the relationship. There'd be nothing more to it besides carnal pleasure. There wouldn't have to be anything more to the sexual relationship besides the sexual contact. If I can't have the sexual contact in my relationship, then I'm not cheating my relationship because it's not going to someone else for pleasure while having the ability to fulfill my desires within the relationship. I'm not cheating the relationship out of anything that it's not already cheating itself out of because of the distance.
So if someone's in a long distance relationship, and they have carnal desires that they wish to fulfill outside of the relationship and strictly fulfill the carnal desires, can one consider it cheating? Isn't it, essentially, masturbation with two or more people? If your relationship cheats itself out of certain aspects, then is it still possible for you to cheat the relationship out of it? I don't see how. Of course, this also boils down to how you view sex. Is sex something that should be used within a relationship, or is it something that can be used both with or without feelings for the other person(s)? If it's the former, you're not going to agree with me. If it's the latter, my point of view makes a lot of sense.
Maybe I'm just trying to grasp at straws to find out ways to justify my desires, but I don't think so. I have had months to think about this, and I'm quite convinced that I'm onto something. Whether or not I have sex on the side of a long distance relationship, it doesn't change the fact that I'm incapable of having sex with my girlfriend because of the distance. That's just my logic.
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Gay Experience
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Posted:Sep 23, 2007 5:56 pm
Last Updated:Oct 2, 2007 5:43 pm
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As I mentioned in my last blog post, I was bi-curious for a little bit of time, and I wanted to experiment to see what it was like. Well, I had a gay experience, and while it felt good, it was too awkward for me to find arousing, anymore. We didn't do too much. No anal was done by either of us. I don't really need a man for that if I wanted the experience, anyways.
After that experience, me touching another guy's genitals, especially in a sexual way, is not much of an option, anymore. I think I could handle incidental touching in a MMF threesome (which seems that it will never happen for me  ), but I don't think I could actively seek to touch or be touched by another guy. At least I was open-minded enough to try it. Now I know that it's just not my thing. I was hoping it wouldn't be as awkward, and it'd be another fun thing to be able to do, but that's not the case. I guess it's not for everybody, and I'm fine with it.
Now, I can just concentrate on the women. Not that they pay any attention to me, regardless of what I do. I'm not in such an urgent need of a woman's touch, but every day the desire progresses, and it'll probably reach the point where I'll need it before I go insane. Hopefully, I won't get to that point, and some lovely woman will come to the rescue. I just the ones I try to contact would give me the time of day.
So I figured I would throw that out there for the sake of posting another blog, possibly catching the eye of some local woman, and to inform hopeful guys that I'm not willing nor will I be willing to do anything with them. Not that they've ever gotten the hint before...
One last thing, I need to find women that would like to cam with me. I enjoy exhibitionism, but it's more arousing if you are mutually masturbating with another person on cam. I have yet to find anybody with a cam willing to participate. Just throwing that out there. 
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Sexually Deprived
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Posted:Sep 21, 2007 9:40 am
Last Updated:May 10, 2024 10:57 pm
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So I may just be back again, and I'm, once again, sexually deprived. It really does suck.
I do have a girlfriend again now. I was single for 3 months, tried and tried to have hook-ups on this site and elsewhere, but to no avail. Now that I'm in another relationship, I'm just about as deprived. No, not because she won't give me any. Trust me, she's almost hornier than I am. The problem is that I'm, yet again, in another long distance relationship.
My relationship with my current girlfriend, at the moment, is exclusive, but we've both talked and if the situation arises for either one of us to be able to play, that we'd allow for it... as long as the other gets permission to do the same later on. We're both desiring sex badly right now, and I'm just looking for the opportunity to get rid of some of these hormones.
Hopefully I can find someone to have some fun on the side with. Before I do anything, it WILL be girlfriend-approved, but that shouldn't be too hard to get. I won't cheat on her, so if any woman feels reserved to approach me because she fears that she'd be helping me cheat, let her rest assured that I wouldn't do that to my girlfriend.
On another note, I'm back in the mood to where I want to have a gay experience. I want to know what it's like. I'm still not attracted to guys, and I won't ever be, but I want to know what the experience would be like, and if I would like it, at all. Just because I may not be attracted to guys doesn't mean that I can't get off just the same, right?
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Closer?
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Posted:May 23, 2007 8:04 pm
Last Updated:Sep 15, 2007 8:08 pm
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Okay, so this lady from Mass. was/is here in Michigan for a wedding.. about 35 miles north of here. It looked like we could have been meeting, but she disconnected, and that was the last of any talks. Needless to say, I was disappointed.
I guess I'm getting closer to finally achieving what I want. Unfortunately, getting closer still means I haven't achieved it, and that is annoying. I guess with a little more effort, I'll get sex. Who knows how much longer that will take.
I have been trying, though. I find chicks and I do send them emails. I don't know if I'm being aggressive enough, but I don't want to sound like a jackass, but maybe I should cut to the chase a little quicker. We'll see how that works out in the next few messages I send.
Anyways, wish me luck, .
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