IN LOVING MEMORY OF MRGOODTYME4U
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Posted:Sep 12, 2009 6:34 pm
Last Updated:Sep 9, 2018 6:38 pm
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If you've read one my blogs from back in June of 2007, you would be familiar with my mentioning the trials and tribulations of being in and out of a relationship with meeting and falling in love with this person from this site.
We ended our relationship sometime that fall of 2007 but remained loving friends. He started to become very sick around early 2008 and his health really went down hill from there.
He developed a terrible form of Multiple Myeloma. It's a rare form of bone cancer. Because of our situation I wasn't able to come and see him as I truly wanted. But he always called me at least once a week or texted me to let me know how he was doing.
After he had a couple of surgeries in January, we lost track of each other. I would still send him text messages of get well wishes and encouragement when I could. When I hadn't heard from him in a while, I didn't worry because we were like that we wouldn't chat for months and then pick up where we left off.
I started to get a feeling of something wasn't right about him around the Spring but I was soo busy with my own hectic life of dealing with my job, family life and being sick myself off & on that I totally forgot about my feeling of dread.
Well today at work something told me to look up the Obituaries just for the heck of it I put in his last name and the Ancestry Dot Com web site popped up for some unknown reason. All names related to his popped up and I wouldn't have been alarmed but I saw his exact name with initials and all. And what made me sit up and stare was it had deceased and the date by his name.
Now very frantic I checked all of the newspapers in New Jersey with Obituaries and entered his name and dated it back to the past 6 months. Sadly I found out that he had died on May 15th, this past Spring from complications of his terrible, terrible illness. He and I just knew he would kick it, he was soo athletic and healthy.
Needless to say, I will never let my hunches go when I have that feeling. I will miss him soo much, he was a wonderful father, husband, , brother, lover and friend. He was always concerned about life and how people treated each other, regardless of their skin color. I am happy that he is no longer in pain but he was way too young to leave us so soon. But God makes the decision when it's time for us to go. I will never forget him and he will always have a place in my heart. I truly hope one day that we will meet again and be able to take our spirits to our dream place where we always said where we wanted to retire together; the hot & sultry island of Jamaica...
Always tell your loved one how you feel about them and go see them and your friends when their sick. You might never know what's truly going on with them...
Smooches ~ A Very Sad Dolly
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"Why Is It?"
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Posted:Jun 30, 2007 6:04 am
Last Updated:Jun 11, 2016 2:25 pm
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Why is it you go thru all of the changes to try and meet someone here on this site, just to get your heart broken or dissapointed?
Is it human nature for men to drive a woman crazy by pursuing her, then after he gets her begins the long process of neglecting her? I have met and been involved with a couple of men on this site. And for whatever reason, it's happened to me again & again.
When I found this site, I chose to do as most people do here. I just wanted to meet someone who I could spend some time with when I could, go out and enjoy each other's company and have if not great, pretty descent sex.
I have met and chatted with countless men, who go thru the process of chatting & chatting and begging and everything else that they need to finally get the female they are seeking. Then if we're a match, we move on to the next stage. I met one here who chased me from one end of jersey to the other until I finally relented and decided to see him exclusively.
All I wanted to do was meet someone when our schedule permitted, hang out, catch up on each other lives, fuck each other silly, and go back to our "other" lives. But no, he decides to step it up a notch by telling me he loves me, which in time hearing it enough and being told aside from his wife, I was the only one for him I began to have those same feelings for him. I know, what a fool I was, but aren't most women when their looking for something that's hard to attain? And most definitely when they do tell you they love you, in your mind, that means you are no longer allowed to fuck around with others, you belong to him and him only. Even though in my case he adamantly told me he didn't want me fucking around with others on this site, come on isn't this where he found me?
And sure enough it was the beginning of the end. After two years of waiting for him, being stood up by him, being hurt by him and being totally dissapointed by him, I threw in the towel. Aside from the first year, it had gotten totally dissatisfying.
Then I met another one here who for an entire year put me thru a long process of cat & mouse. And believe it or not, we never even got to actually meet face to face! We created a on physical relationship here on the computer. And he did the same thing, started with that I love you crap and insisting that I only deal with him exclusively. Stupid me, he just kept me hanging on to the hope that we would eventually meet, but of course that didn't happen.
The reason I am writing this is because if there are any women out there looking for the same things I have been, be careful of your heart. They will worm their way in and steal it and send you on an emotional roller coaster ride until you can't take it no more and want off.
Don't get me wrong, I know this site is what it is, a let's meet and let's fuck because I ain't getting none at home site. And I can deal with that, but when you get these men who say one thing and do another and have you totally at their mercy. Or tell you they're this, when they're actually that. You get dissolusioned and just say forget it, it's just not worth the emotional drama. My membership runs out in January and when it does, so do I, who needs the stress?
Good Luck Ladies & watch your heart ~
Smooches ~ 
NJDoll
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