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Posted:Jul 31, 2007 9:50 pm
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My dear friends, I know you all will understand this, but I am afraid I won't be on-line for the next few days or so... Perhaps even a week.
Last night, there was a shooting on my block, actually two houses down from me. I knew it was gang related, someone got hurt, and as bad as I felt to know that, I thought that was the end of it.
Apparently I was sadly mistaken. Today, as my room mate, my and I were loading up my car, with more things to move to my new apartment, things started back up, it was only about 5:00 pm, were outside playing, and if it wasn't because both my room mate and I are always very cautious and aware of our surroundings, and the fact that the girl two doors down from us was fighting with some guy, and being very loud, we might not have noticed the guy pull out a gun. I screamed at my to get inside the house as I ran to follow them into the house, and just as the door closed with all of us inside the shooting broke out.
That I know of no one got hurt this time, but a few minutes later the husband of the girl came home, found out what happened, and some people heard him swear he's going to "kill the motherfucker" and a few minutes after that, his wife and took off like a bat outta hell.
Which leads me to believe that this is far from over, and although the police were called, they didn't arrest the guy who did the shooting. I am afraid that these two men have decided to kill one another and have very little concern for who they might hurt in the process.
That's why I've decided my and I will be going to stay at a friends house tonight... and possibly the next couple of days, at least until I can finish moving. My were very scared, they've never been subject to anything like this before, and to be quite honest, I am scared for them.
If anyone needs to get a hold of me, fuzzy has my number, among other people within the group.
Take care, be good, and I'll be back in a few days... I promise.
~ Nessa ~
(Originally Posted Jul 27, 2006 7:27 pm)
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Posted:Jul 31, 2007 9:47 pm
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Now that I've started to see the light,
Why do they want to turn it off?
Wasn't all that pain enough?
Or would they rather I die for love?
No, they just want to see me cry,
Did they not see how much it hurt..
To love those who didn't love me?
And now that I find his company...
There's all kinds of gossip..
That because I love you I did witchcraft,
that I stole your soul, that it isn't mine.
that I should return your sanity.
Who would've thought you would lose one you loved the most?
It wasn't your fault, it wasn't my fault.
I only cared for your heart.
No, they just want to see me cry,
Did they not see how much it hurt..
To love those who didn't love me?
And now that I find your company..
There's all kinds of gossip..
That because I love you I did witchcraft,
that I stole your soul, and it's not mine.
that I should return your sanity.
Who would've thought you would lose one you loved the most?
It wasn't your fault, it wasn't my fault.
I only cared for your heart.
And it was out of love.
It's not witchcraft...
~ Nessa ~
(Originally Posted Jul 26, 2006 2:10 pm)
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Posted:Jul 31, 2007 9:46 pm
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I have a few questions! *raises hand* (for the women mostly)
I was just wondering, how many of you find wearing high-heels to be an excruciating painful torment?
I go out, and I see all these women on high-heels, like it's the most natural thing in the world, I can't wear them, I find it extremely painful. Although I'd love to wear them, I've found I can't take but a few steps in them before I am begging for my life to take them off.
Does anyone suggest anything I could try to perhaps slowly get accustom to them? Or could this be a medical issue? Or is just that most women have higher pain tolerance than I do??
Your input will be greatly appreciated.
~ Nessa ~
(Originally Posted Jul 25, 2006 5:39 pm)
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Posted:Jul 31, 2007 9:44 pm
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Gloria Estefan once said "The sad truth is that opportunity doesn't knock twice. You can put things off until tomorrow but tomorrow may never come."
I am proud to say that both of my daughters have put that advice to good use.
A few days ago, they heard something about castings for the disney channel, they talked to me and asked me to make the call. I told them I wouldn't make the call. They asked in their worse whinny voice, with tears in their eyes "But whyyyy mommy?!?" "Please!! I want this more than ANYTHING!"
I looked at them, and saw my self when I was somewhere around their age... and told them what I wish someone would've said to me, instead of the flat "No!" I got from my grandmother, I said to them: "Look, you both know I love you both with all my heart, and I will always support you in anything you decide to do as long as it is good for you. But, I can't do it for you. There's going to be times, that you're REALLY going to want to do something... and, as long as it's a good thing, YOU have to DO IT. You have to go out there and fight for what you want! You can't always send mommy to do it for you, even as much as I'd like to always do everything for you, it's time that you learn, that in order to get anywhere in life, you HAVE to work for it... And if this is something you both REALLY want to do, then you have to have the nerve to go for it! and if you can't make a simple phone call, how do you think you're going to be able to go through with the audition?? I can't do it for you! What happens later in life, when you want to do something and you have to do more than just make a call?? You're going to ask me to do it?? What if I'm not around?? What if I don't show up in time?? You're just going to pass it up waiting for me to show up so I can do it for you?? You won't get anywhere if you don't learn to stand on your own two feet and fight for what you want, for what you KNOW you deserve!... Do you understand?"
They said yes... and walked away, with their heads hanging down and looking so sad, I felt so bad... I thought, "Maybe I'm expecting too much of them... Maybe I should make the call, it doesn't kill me to do it." but I didn't.
A few hours later, they came to me, and gave me a phone number, and my oldest said, "Mommy, I called the number and talked to them, so did Evy (her sister), and they said all they need is to talk to you to get your permission for an audition. You said if we really wanted something to go and get it, and that you would support us. So, we called, and got it... Would you please call the lady now?"
I called the number, and gave my permission for an audition, but I told them to keep in mind that many will be auditioning, and that it would be hard.
So, even though both of their feet, and mine are very well planted on the ground, I can't help but to feel very proud of them. They did what I failed to do. Have the courage to go for what they wanted when they saw an opportunity, and maybe nothing happens, and maybe something does, but what really matters to me, is that I know, that I've taught them to grab on to the opportunities that might come knocking.
Their audition was on the 18th, and while they got accepted, I'm afraid we're going to have to turn it down, it seems they are required to take some classes, which I have to pay for, it will cost me $2250.00 for each one of my two girls to take those classes, and right now, I just can't afford that.
They say money isn't everything... but isn't it funny how the lack of it can close doors just as easily as having tons of it can open them?
~ Nessa ~
"Out of clutter, find Simplicity
From discord, find Harmony.
In the middle of difficulty lies opportunity."
(Albert Einstein)
(Originally Posted Jul 21, 2006 9:24 am)
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Posted:Jul 31, 2007 9:41 pm
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I just came back from a block party, I didn’t really want to go, but I knew the wanted to go and my friend had invited us all. So early this afternoon we went, got there a little after 3:00 p.m. it was just getting started. As soon as I got there, my friend shoved me off to two guys who automatically started dancing with me… I think I danced 3 songs with each of them, and when I thought we were done, my friend tells this girl to dance with me.
My mother was a dance teacher in Mexico, and she taught my sister and me to dance at a very young age. Apparently, I inherited my mother’s ability to dance well to any type of music, and before you knew it, I was dancing with guys and girls all over this block party.
The food was great, the party was fun, and my had a blast, except for a little episode where my got hurt… They were jumping on the air castle thing that the block rented, and someone let the air out while they were jumping and when it fell, all the fell on top of my . She couldn’t breathe and freaked out. Fortunately, I’ve always been somewhat over protective of my , and I saw what was happening, and ran to get her out. She cried for a bit, mostly because she was scared, no serious injury. Soon enough she was back playing with all the .
As it turns out, the party was a great idea, it allow the to burn some energy, I had a good time, and danced most of the afternoon. Ok, so my feet are hurting, but I’m glad I got to have some fun and most importantly, my did too.
The only thing that stunned me was when my friend’s friend, who is lesbian and is supposed to be in-love with my friend, out of the blue, kissed me! She made it clear she wants to see me, and gave me a ring… she called it a “compromise ring”. I tried to give it back, but my friend said if I did that, I would insult her. So I decided to wait until she wasn’t drunk so I could talk to her, and give her the ring back.
So, how was your day?
~ Nessa ~
(Originally Posted Jul 15, 2006 8:37 pm)
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Posted:Jul 31, 2007 9:38 pm
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While on the phone with Justlooking4fun_, wondering what the hell to post, we stumbled into a conversation about what men tend to call their "members". After a few laughs he mentioned that an ex-girlfriend of his once named his member "bam-bam" (again more laughs)... When I asked why, he said that she said that when he was inside her, going at a fast pace, his balls would hit her ass making a "bam-bam-bam" sound!! LMFAO (uncontrollably long laugh now!)
So my question is, ladies, what are some of the most unique nicknames/pet names you've come up with for the male member?
Gentlemen, what pet names do you have for your members and why?
~ Nessa ~
(Originally Posted Jul 13, 2006 2:18 am)
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Posted:Jul 31, 2007 9:36 pm
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The man on this pic apparently went far enough!
I don't know about all of you, but even being the woman that I am, I find it extremely painful just looking at that!
What would posses a person to mutilate them selfs in such way??
Don't get me wrong, I love piercings, I have my clit pierced, but that's just too much I think.
I wonder, if I was the woman who was going to have sex with him.. would I be able to? Would you??
~ Nessa ~
(Originally Posted Jul 10, 2006 11:11 pm)
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Posted:Jul 31, 2007 9:34 pm
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I called the guy who is interested in giving me a job earlier today... it seems that I was misinformed, the job doesn't start until August. And to top it off, the company is demanding that I completelly ace the stupid grammar test they're giving.... I hate grammar, but I think I did pretty good... got 36 right out of 40.. well, apparently it's not good enough. He's going to have me re take it, and he's going to talk to them and see if they can bring down the level of expectation in regards to that test... I doubt they will. After all, if they're going to hire someone, they need to hire someone who can do the job, and that includes having excellent writting skills... which apparently I don't have.
I guess I'll keep trying, I really want this job... And I don't really know the meaning of "quitting"
~ Nessa ~
(Originally Posted Jul 10, 2006 10:12 pm)
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Posted:Jul 31, 2007 9:32 pm
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I had never heard of this.
Artificial Blood Experiment Hits 27 U.S. Cities
July 07, 2006 10:10 AM
Brian Ross and Joseph Rhee Report:
In 27 cities across the United States, seriously injured accident victims could end up in a medical experiment, without their knowledge or consent.
The experiment involves an artificial blood called Polyheme.
The federal government has given the company that makes it approval to use badly bleeding accident victims as test subjects, without the subjects informed consent.
The only way out is to wear a blue bracelet provided by the company.
The company says it's the only way to test such a product.
But others, including Pastor Paul Burleson of a Denver church alliance, say it turns Americans into human guinea pigs.
"If I'm in accident and I just don't happen to have this particular wristband, that I'd be a guinea pig is unconscionable," he said.
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~ Nessa ~
(Originally Posted Jul 9, 2006 8:03 pm)
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Posted:Jul 31, 2007 9:29 pm
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I got this from Now_N_Zen, who I think got it from fancy_for_you, who got it from ohcurious14, who in turn got it from Twister2bed who claims to be innocent until proven guilty.
So I thought I'd post it... It may prove to be quite interesting... C'mon!! Give it a try.. what do you have to lose??
Ok, Here we go... ...
1. Your First Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favorite Movie:
5. Favorite Song:
6. Favorite Band/Rapper/Artist:
7. Kinky or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
HERE COMES THE FUN... ... ...
1. Do we know each other outside of Affairlook?
2. Whats your philosophy on life??
3. Would you have my back in a fight??
4. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest??
5. What is your favorite memory of us??
6. Have we ever been drunk together??
7. Do you wanna get drunk together??
8. Tell me one odd/intresting fact about you:
9. Would you take care of me when I'm sick??
10. Can we get together and make a cake??
11. have you heard any rumors of me lately??
12. Do you wanna see me naked??
13. Do you think I'm a good person??
14. Would you drive across country with me??
15. Do you think I'm attractive??
16. Have I seen you naked??
17. If you could change anything about me, would you? what would it be??
18. What do you wear to sleep??
19. Would you come over for no reason just to hang out??
20. Would you go on a date with me if I asked you??
21. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you??
Have fun!
~ Nessa ~
(Originally Posted Jul 8, 2006 9:57 pm)
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Posted:Jul 31, 2007 9:26 pm
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I talked to my attorney, and she said that the ONLY way my landlord can kick me out by this month is if she delivers an eviction notice IN WRITTING, which she failed to do, therefore she can NOT expect me to move out by the end of this month, if she wants me to move out by the end of next month then she has to supply me with a written notice before the end of this month. Even though we only have a month to month verbal lease agreement.
Although I don't want to have problems with her, it's at least an option I have in case I don't find an appartment before the end of the month. Which I've already started looking for... I'm thinking.. the suburbs... Or, I can just move to GA with my sister.
Just thought I'd update you all on this subject.
~ Nessa ~
(Originally Posted Jul 7, 2006 11:55 pm)
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Posted:Jul 31, 2007 9:23 pm
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Today, I received a call from the landlord, telling me that I have until the end of this month to move out.
Being I've never been late with the rent, and we've never had any problems, I asked her why, she said that her is coming from Mexico and she wants to install him in this apartment.
Well that's just FUCKING LOVELY! Like, WHO is going to rent ME an apartment without a job?! NO ONE! Not to mention I'll have to rent a truck to move, come up with the deposit and first month's rent for this new place! And I have absolutelly NO way of accomplishing that.
I guess it's true... "When it rains... it pours!"
~ Nessa ~
(Originally Posted Jul 6, 2006 11:59 pm)
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Posted:Jul 31, 2007 9:21 pm
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I've been thinking a lot lately, and I'm not sure if it's due to the fact that I'm old now, or to the fact that I recently lost my job, and have too much free time on my hands, the lack of sleep... perhaps a mixture of all of those things... But I was just wondering... Is there anything in your past, that you wish you could go back and "do-over" again? If so, what would you pick? and why?? what would you do differently??
I have always prided my self on the fact that everything I've ever done, I have always thought through before actually doing it. Attempting, at least, to ensure that I would not regret doing whatever it was I was doing.
I can honestly count the things I would go back and "do over".. or in my case, NOT do... with a single finger on my hand... and although, I KNOW that what happened was not something that I could have forseen... Although, believe it or not, I did... When I think about it, in my mind, I always think that there HAD to be SOMETHING I could've done... And yet, as insignificant as one second seems to be, that one single moment changed my life so profoundly... that up to now, I was not even completely aware of it.
It took having my sister for a visit, and having her point out some of the things that she saw in me, that were there.. or lack of, while she was here.
For example:
My weight, I NEVER used to be this heavy. The depression that I tend to want to hide, even thought it's very clear to others... simply by my attitude sometimes, my lack of interest in things that I used to enjoy at one time, the way I wrap my self around a task, and don't allow any rest or time between successfully performing said task... as if wanting to drawn my self with things to keep me occupied, or when that fails, the need to bury my mind and heart in the numb blackness of slumber, my lack of patience towards everyone, except for my ... subsequently, the lack of laughter, joy, happiness and everything else that made me feel alive!
I bet you're wondering what's that one thing that I would do over uh?
I can tell you, that all these changes, could've been avoided, if I had simply failed to go to sleep one cold night on December 24th, 1995.
~ Nessa ~
(Originally Posted Jul 6, 2006 11:07 am)
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