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Hello everybody let's begin In the beginning i was stealing my mothers pantyhose at 4yrs old and wearing them to bed. I knew at a young age I was different I just did not realize how I was different. i had no role model growing up to show my the way or help me thru my journey. i grew up in a little country town that called itself a city. Somewhere between Niagara Falls and Buffalo. i often thought about wearing girls clothes and to me it seemed like there was nothing wrong with it at that age, I even thought about being a girl. i often pretend played that I was a girl in my make believe world in my head. Other boys pretended to be firemen and I pretended to be a girl. Hell I was a real cute pretty boy of a k**, I was the spitting image of my mother just in boy form. I was also so very special I was walking and talking by 1, and busting out of my own crib before 2. Everyone saw and could tell that I was blessed with higher intelligence than normal and I developed mentally faster than most k**s. Early on i thought I was a girl just didnt understand what this thing hanging between my legs was and maybe if i pulled it would come off, henceforth I often had my hand down my pants unconsciousally trying to pull it off, often my elders would enquire if I had to go to the bathroom, to their puzzlement i would reply no. Then they would swat at my hand to stop doing that , to which i would question doing what, get your hand out of there. It became all to clear I had a thirst for knowledge I had learned to read well before kindergarten, and was reading my fathers old encyclopedias to which my<b> parents </font></b>bought me an updated set of encyclopedias the funk and wagnalls within those two sets of books i found delight i would read each book cover to cover and by the time i went to kindergarten i was finished with both sets. i also had what they called hyperactivity, had i been born later in the 20th century i may have been diagnosed with adhd, but in my generation the solution of hyperactivity was a swift backhand and a quick sit down shut up and stop fidgeting, sit still, and you better listen or you wil get another one. you adapted very quickly pain was a stimulus that could cure me of this hyperactivity. at some point i had a seizure and convulsive disorder before school started. so i was put on a high dosage of phenobarbatol in elixir form 5 times a day. i hated the taste of the stuff. and being as smart as i was i was entrusted alot with my own medication, but often times i would lie and say i had taken it when in fact i had not. but by that time i had a habit for the stuff and no one realized because when i didn't take it i would become very sick and need to be taken to the hospital for a series if symptoms that had no explanation, i was going thru withdrawal and no one had thought about this as the case. it wasn't until my mid twenties i realized it was withdrawal symptoms. |
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