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Just call me Awlphuktup...
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Just call me Awlphuktup...  . . . . . So last post I was thinkng about some of the crazy assed things I did as a ...and lived to tell about it! I don't know about you, or you all...or y'all...depending where you live...but my mind tends to wander when I starts to thinkn'. Things just pop in and outta there with no rhyme or reason sometimes...  On this particular day, I was thinkng about the time we rode our BMX bikes from the farm to school to show our friends...long story short we ended up building some ramps to show off just like on the farm, and a couple of our "town" friends MAY have gotten concussions from bad landings...pussies...  Anyway, that's not what this post is about. Around the same time I remembered a certain birthday where I invited everyone in my classmates to my party...all 13 of them...including girls! I think I was turning 12. A couple days before the party my parents said I can't have the girls, just the boys...so I spread the news...except one girl didn't get the memo and on the day of the party she is still expecting to come out and I had to tell her she couldn't. Towards the end of the school day she presents me with the birthday gift her parents had sent with her to give to me...and she says... "Here is your birthday gift from me. It's ok that I can't come to your party. My parents are dumb sometimes too. Happy Birthday!" I still remember that gift...it was one of those helicoptors on a stick with a cord you pull and it flys up in the air...the harder you pulled the cord, the higher it went! I played with that thing for at least two years...until one of my brothers shot it down with a home made bow and arrow... Here is where I am Awlphuktup...I still feel bad about that day and kind of guilty too, like I shouldn't have taken the gift...and also for missing telling her earlier etc, etc,. There are a million things I should feel guilty for and don't...like the 50 women I cheated with on my first wife...frankly, she was cold and mean to me...I needed and deserved some affection (and sex)...so I went and got it. It would make sense to feel some guilt about cheating...but I don't and never did. There are events that transpired when a business partnership failed that resulted in actions some would say were less than honourable...the kind of things that fall under the category of..."Revenge is a dish best served cold"...but I don't feel guilty about them either. There are other things...with the point being...why do I still feel bad about a simple childhood mistake, like I need to track this girl down and apologize...when I have no such feelings about things I did as an adult...things I feel like I should have some remorse for, but don't? Whose idea was it to lay in the dark naked and think so much anyway??? Anything you'd like to get off your chest? I won't tell...  lustytaurus.LUSTYTAURUS FYI...I think it is totally cool that we can have a dirty mind and a clean conscience...at the same time! |
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12/22/2010 2:18 am |
I have never felt guilty for cheating... maybe because it never bothered me if I was cheated on!? That s a problem in a way isnt it? Oh what am I saying! Of course it isnt lol 
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I still feel guilty that I couldn't make either of my marriages work. I couldn't give up enough of my self or change enough fo me to make them happy. I love them and want to see them happy but know I can't be the one to make that happen. I can only make me happy and that's what I have to do. Just more to feel guilty about! Great Post Kisses, LeeAnn Kisses, LA   
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I feel guilty only when I am guilty; and guilt can be healed pretty easily... with time. Regret is, however, usually (virtually exclusively, to be certain) a result of what didn't happen rather than what did happen. Regret just can't be easily fixed because... that which results in regret never actually took place outside your own skull. Regret is much more deleterious and insidious than guilt. Believe it. Merry Christmas, Lusty; Solar... BTW: I'm hard-pressed to forgive you K-Nukes for runnin' Coulter out.
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I will have to cop out like New did and just go with Solar's response  Merry Christmas LT !!!! I had a dream my life would be So different from this hell I'm living So different now from what it seemed Now life has killed the dream I dreamed    RAInBow
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This was my FB status today.. I am totally unrepentant!
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12/22/2010 9:31 pm |
Sorry to learn that you are still racked by guilt over your early misdeeds. I, on the other hand, have led a faultless life ...one of wholesome innocence and am therefore entirely without guilt or regret. Recent post: [post 2369941]
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I feel guilty that I'm not nicer to my family.
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12/23/2010 2:27 am |
We regret not having done something as Solar says cos that moment that we could have done "it" or wanted to, will never come again. It s important to do what we want to do and what needs be done so we can lay down with a smile at night.
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I had one of those choppers, too. Wow, your brother was a really good shot! I thought this was going to be another vampire post--what with the picture and all. John Lee Hooker Recommended: [blog lucyjane78]
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Guilt is a man made emotions...that serves no purpose...Merry Christmas LT...
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Hello "Lusty".....I was just popping in to check on things and saw your comment!...So here I am for a moment to say HELLO and hoping the holidays are good to you....Ill be checking back from time to time. But until then Happy New Year!!..c-ya 
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I have never felt guilty for cheating... maybe because it never bothered me if I was cheated on!? That s a problem in a way isnt it? Oh what am I saying! Of course it isnt lol 
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I still feel guilty that I couldn't make either of my marriages work. I couldn't give up enough of my self or change enough fo me to make them happy. I love them and want to see them happy but know I can't be the one to make that happen. I can only make me happy and that's what I have to do. Just more to feel guilty about! Great Post Kisses, LeeAnn
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I feel guilty only when I am guilty; and guilt can be healed pretty easily... with time. Regret is, however, usually (virtually exclusively, to be certain) a result of what didn't happen rather than what did happen. Regret just can't be easily fixed because... that which results in regret never actually took place outside your own skull. Regret is much more deleterious and insidious than guilt. Believe it. Merry Christmas, Lusty; Solar... BTW: I'm hard-pressed to forgive you K-Nukes for runnin' Coulter out.
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the solution obviously is to stick a cock in her mouth everytime she opens it...yep, me you and Ann is the best solution, here is les risk of her speaking when one of us is boning her and the other has his cock in her mouth!
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I will have to cop out like New did and just go with Solar's response Merry Christmas LT !!!!
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This was my FB status today.. I am totally unrepentant!
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Sorry to learn that you are still racked by guilt over your early misdeeds. I, on the other hand, have led a faultless life ...one of wholesome innocence and am therefore entirely without guilt or regret.
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I think that shame is worse than guilt or regret....for most people....it seems to do the most damage
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I feel guilty that I'm not nicer to my family.
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We regret not having done something as Solar says cos that moment that we could have done "it" or wanted to, will never come again. It s important to do what we want to do and what needs be done so we can lay down with a smile at night.
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I had one of those choppers, too. Wow, your brother was a really good shot! I thought this was going to be another vampire post--what with the picture and all.
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Guilt is a man made emotions...that serves no purpose...Merry Christmas LT... Merry Christmas to you!
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Hiya LT,   Guilt and remorse(tricky subject there lol),well I was once asked to do a moral inventory,Okay,so I start it,but one problem developed,who's morals do I follow.Religious morals,societies morals,political morals,etc,etc.Being in the lifestyle you tend to have different views and opinions on things.So in the end I followed my own morals and the inventory went better,basically I followed the old (treat people as I want to be treated scenario) and made amends where I saw fit.Basically if something gives me a football in the gut then I have to do something about it.Anyways nice to see u and hope u have a Merry HoHo and Happy Next Year  Raw
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Hello "Lusty".....I was just popping in to check on things and saw your comment!...So here I am for a moment to say HELLO and hoping the holidays are good to you....Ill be checking back from time to time. But until then Happy New Year!!..c-ya Happy New Year!
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