Ever Have... One Of Those Days? - a Blog Post by Paulxx001

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Ever Have... One Of Those Days?

If there was a pill you could swallow... to never feel sadness again - would you take it? She wished somebody, had offered her one... as soon, as she stepped into that, empty house.

Her heels, clicked across the dark grey, stone tiled floor and echoed, off the bare, white walls, as she reached the kitchen. Slowly, she pulled the keys, from the brass ring and threw them, on the black marble counter. He... had already been there, and had left his set... neatly stacked and labelled. As usual... he'd taken pride, in his pointless, self-absorbed, neatness.

She sighed, as she glanced at her watch, and realized she was early. The real estate agent, wouldn't be there for another hour. She would linger, for 60 minutes more, in the home, where she'd lived, for 32 y.ears .

Imagined voices and laughter, called to her. She followed them... down the hallway and up the stairs. She walked into rooms, once littered, with toys and dolls and where clothes... had been strewn in piles, on beds. She smiled to herself, recalling all those silly, motherly complaints.

The walls, with their tiny holes and scratches, and scrawls (in pencil and pen), offered clues... that someone had lived there. Time had been measured... in inches... as they'd grown. "My gosh. Were they really, that little?" she thought to herself, as she bent down, to touch her daughters' initials. They were squiggled, in red and blue crayon, and had nearly faded, into invisibility.

In another room, she closed her eyes, and almost smelled - the fresh paint. She'd always loved that shade of green and was proud, of her efforts, with a roller and a brush. He... never forgot to remind her... just how much, he hated that colour.

Eventually, she wandered back... into the kitchen. An open drawer, drew her closer. She peered in... and tucked, right at the back, found something... that had been left behind. It was a picture. A small one, framed, by the people who sold it to her. You've probably seen them. They're the ones snapped, as you roar down the steep angles, of those epic rides, at amusement parks?

"Wow," she whispered to herself. "This, is from so... long... ago."

The four of them; her family... Mouth's open, hands raised, laughter frozen - in that moment. She recalled... it had been raining, that day. The park, was almost empty and there were no lines, for any of the rides. They'd ridden the giant roller coaster, 4 times in a row. "That... was a great day. That, was a really... great day," she smiled.

She held the photo closely, while peering into the expressions, of her . "Oh my gosh. The girls, look so tiny. We all look... so young. Everyone's so happy ! Even him..." she thought, "... even him."

They live a thousand miles away - her , that is. They're adults now, with families of their own. They call... occasionally. That amusement park, has long since, closed up, been torn down... and replaced with condos. She brushed her hair, with her fingers... and glanced at her watch...

Ever have one of those days, when sadness and nostalgia, wrap around your throat - like a warm scarf, that you just don't want to take off... even if you know, it's choking you?

She stood there... clutching that photograph tightly... with both her hands, afraid to let it go. She was having... one of those days

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So...
Would you take that pill, if someone offered it to you?
What do you do, to cheer yourself up?

Studies have shown that people who shed tears and express sadness are more apt to lead healthier, and happier lives... in the long run. Something to do with releasing emotions, as opposed to keeping them all bunched up. Hmmm.. Ok then. I won't feel bad, next time I cry at a movie. . .

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