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Blogs > Kaiju88 > AIDS and You

March 13, 2018  

Kaiju88 54M
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3/14/2018 5:11 am
March 13, 2018

I'm a heel.

On grindr, I changed my screen name to Aidsy McFaggo as part of last Friday night's show and forgot about it (yeah, it was that kind of show.)

this nice, but somewhat aggressive guy had been after me for a couple of weeks. that I get to have sex at all is rare these days because 1) HIV and 2) most times, I don't feel an attraction to someone. I should have vanilla-ed this dude the first time he messaged me.

Aidsy McFaggo, right? He gives a heartfelt spiel about his experience with the AIDS crisis and that my screen name was letting AIDS win, and he keeps telling me I can't let AIDS win.

I still appreciate his concern and support but Aidsy McFaggo is my way of not letting AIDS win. I live with my HIV; not hiding from it, not ignoring it, not being<b> ashamed </font></b>of it. it's my HIV and I should be allowed to be Aidsy McFaggo if I want.

I took this nice guy's honest concern as him telling me how to have HIV. I replied then deleted my message many times.

I broke down and told him I wanted to meet so I could beat the shit out of him for presuming he knew my life.

so a nice guy blocked me and I'm a heel.

I'm sorry for threatening to beat you up, nice guy.

honestly, the thought of punching this guy turned me on for the first time since he started messaging me. I hoped he would say "bring it, Aidsy McFaggo; at the statue of Harvey Milk, after school. bring lots of bandages."

this started out as a health issues post, then turned into BDSM, but is actually a confession. I still want to beat him up. thinking about it makes my dick hard.

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