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How I came to realise I was bisexual.
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How I came to realise I was bisexual. Bisexuality is a state of mind, brought about by various environmental influences and a persons personal prejudices. Its not something you are or are not. In fact even being straight or gay is more straight forward than being bisexual. My journey of self discovery started as a young man when I meet a woman who requested we try anal sex. She said she loved receiving a cock in her behind and would I accommodate her. Naturally being a red blood male I said yes. As the relationship grew she asked if she could insert something in my rectum. Now for me this would normally have gone against the social conditioning I had been exposed too for the majority of my life. At the time I was serving in the Army as an infantry soldier. This was a strict hetro-sexual environment and any hint of anything but conformance to that sort of ideal would have lead to a lot of confrontation and possibly some broken limbs. So having a woman ask if she could insert something into my arse that could infer I was gay if I did, would have normally extracted and very distinct "No, what do you think I am GAY?". However I recently had read an article in some journal that was talking about how men that had been<b> </font></b>by other men had gotten erections and even ejaculated were having a hard time dealing with it because they thought it made them gay. The article went of to explain how the erogenous zones for men can be found in the rectum. Especially around the prostate. Massaging the prostate can cause involuntary erections and ejaculation. So I decided that I would be happy for her to experiment with my sphincter if she was gentle on me. She spent a good 20 minutes massaging my rectum with some lubricant before she slowly tried inserting a finger. Fast forward another 40 minutes and she had a vibrator inserted into my arse and was giving me a mind blowing head job at the same time. When I orgasm-ed it was so intense I lay on the bed speechless for the next 20 minutes. A spark had been lite. Next time I was in town I bought my own vibrator and raced home to immediately try and reach the same intense sort of orgasm. I soon discovered that having an orgasm while my prostate was having a gentle amount of pressure applied leads to a very explosive and intense orgasm. It took me about another 4 years when I started to question, whats the difference between a chunk of plastic and a mans penis. Immediately the whole social conditioning about that if another man was to fuck me in the arse that it must mean I'm gay. However I started to reason with myself that this was what my mates in Army and general society would have me think, plus I still was naturally attracted to women. So the whole notion fell flat because I didn't find men attractive. Looking at a good looking guy did nothing for me. so a few more years passed and I hit my thirties. I was now a lot more liberal in my thinking when I thought you know what, I don't need to look at a man and find him attractive to have sex with him. As long as we were mentally on the same page in regards to what each others purpose was in meeting the others sexual desires and nothing more, it should be fine. So I decided to take the plunge. I meet a guy through an adult site similar to this one and organised to go to his house. I remember thinking I was so excited because this was taboo in some way and yet the thought of having another mans rock hard cock pounding into my arse had me so hard it all most hurt. I got to his place and we went in side and talked for a while. Once comfortable we decided to go to the next stage and undress. When he stripped off he was hard. This is were I learnt a lie that i was told as a young man that most men's penises when erect were similar in size. Well this guys had a cock on him that would have made the average porn star look average. I got on my knee's before it and tried giving my first blow job. I still remember thinking how hard and angry his cock looked, yet when I placed it in my mouth for the first time, how soft and smooth the head felt with my tongue. Needles to say I didn't manage to get his huge cock in my arse. I believe he was a little disappointed as he never returned my calls after that day. The more I started having sex with men I became more discerning about their appearances when naked. Stand a man in front of me clothed and I don't think anything sexual about them, I just am not attracted. However take off his clothes and show me his cock and immediately the blood starts flowing. Now at 44 I don't think twice about my sexual orientation. Woman I am naturally attracted to and when I see a good looking woman I naturally think how I would love to fuck her. Show me a good looking man and I have zero desire until it is apparent he might be bisexual or gay and the opportunity to fuck is a possibility, then I start thinking about him without his cloths on. Being bisexual also plays to the fact I have a very large sexual appetite. I like to orgasm at least once a day and if I don't after a couple days it starts fill my head and I become extremely horny. So being a bisexual male I can choose from more partners than if I was plain old straight or gay. Cheers The Bi Guy. |
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Wow! What an interesting read! I am not bi and the thought of any physical contact with a woman leaves me totally cold. Yet I can so totally understand where you come from. Seen from your point of view, such a lot of bi makes sense to me. - And I am guessing it might be fairly similar for women? Something for me to think about... Thanks!  PS. Will you be OK with it if I pimped this post? Something interesting in my life: A surprise on my naked body this morning Come visit my blog to know what I get up to from time to time: [blog 4jasmine2]
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Great story and recount, BiGuy. Thank you so much for sharing. And welcome blogland. I look forward to reading more from you.
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10/18/2012 6:28 am |
is not it wonderful to suck a mans cock and let him fuck u in the ass. i love it all. yes i swallow.
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