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It's Been A While.........
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It's Been A While......... It's been a while since I have written anything in my blog. I have just been "off". When I started this blog, I wanted to be positive when I wrote. Unfortunately, I just haven't felt that way for a long time. The good news is that I am beginning to feel better. I have been working hard on my health and now it is time to begin working on happiness. This means letting go of the past. Past dissapointments, past hurts and past loves. My heart has been broken more than once on this site. But I am still here. I was in love with someone.... we planned on meeting. Then, he just stopped calling, stopped emailing and, stopped coming into my room (Cloud Nine). I don't know why. There was no explanation -- just gone. Why do people do this? Is it really so difficult to say to someone that you have changed your mind and are moving on? This has caused me to pull back. Emotionally. I shut down. I don't know how else to protect my heart. It has caused me to feel uncomfortable and uneasy with men. I can greet people and chat with people in my room ... I love doing that, being a good hostess and getting to know people. But, I have not been able to flirt. I don't want to lead anyone on. I am tired of this. Tired of being lonely and vulnerable. I am trying hard to get on with my life. I have, in many ways. I want to trust again and I want to love again. I said something profound (for me) the other day. I said that I am tired of living in the past and waiting for tomorrow (thinking things will always be better tomorrow). I need to live just for today and let whatever may happen tomorrow happen (within reason, of course). So, any ideas on how I do this? Voice 
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AH, BUT YOU'RE NOT ALONE HERE! Always a kind word, always a sweet reply, there when you need support, sweetie! Romance her heart, tease her body, enjoy the company shared in bed n out! Treasure every moment spent together, in good times n bad! Cum visit my blog, you're always welcum!  submokey Become a watcher! THINK PINK!
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Wb Voice to the blog world. I am sure you will come up with some good items to try on here like in your chatroom. Try this group out HNW Bloggers every Wed HNW Day.. theme every week. Great to see you back hugs kisses V Become a blog watcher sweet_vm
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You are doing it...being mindful and practicing mindfulness. If you want love, you have to open up and be vulnerable again...very scary! I know because I was in the similar situation as you - fell in love and then she backed way off. It hurts. I write and talk to you guys. I breath in and out daily, and I practice mindfulness. I really do appreciate you Voice, thanks for being a good hostess! VF “Life is available only in the present moment.” Thich Nhat Hanh Come and read my blog! Become a watcher! veryfunnycple64 
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