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A true 1st step, finally
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A true 1st step, finally I was on here a year ago, well the profile or parts of it have been here since a year ago. I thought I had delt with the implanted cultural and religious bias that had caused me to suppress my lust for men all those years. I was wrong. I did OK with the fantasies, and I flirted well enough I think. It was still not easy to meet guys, partly because I'm picky, not just about who but also about how and what. When I said I needed kissing and cuddling I was put down by a number of members. I did finally meet one man, a nice guy really. We met and went to his place. As he was trying to suck me I just thought, this isn't me, apologized, dressed, and left. End of adventure. A few weeks ago the lust demanded release or at least it resurfaced and fought for control of me. In the past year I've worked with a lot of gay men and women, gotten more involved in my church's gay rights campaigns (not the church of my childhood), and had a lot of Facebook debates on gay marriage with the people I grew up with who still have very closed minds. I came back to this site under my old profile and began to look around. Last week I got an email from Affairlook titled 'Free viewing and emails on Senior FriendFinder this weekend' I couldn't figure why they sent it to my Affairlook account (I'm on both). Then I discovered it worked here, before the weekend. I could read profiles and send emails. So I did. I contacted a local guy and we traded a few emails and eventually . We were talking on the phone Friday evening and I asked if he'd like some company. He invited me over. We had a pleasant conversation, played handsies for a bit and went to the bedroom. I was naked first and was pulling his boxers off in my excitement. We stood there kissing, I turned him and backed him up to the bed. I pushed him back so he sat. I knelt between his legs and reached for his dick. I played with it, tried to beat it. But it stayed limp, a problem I expect to encounter a good bit dating in my age group. Then I bent and took it in my mouth. It was the most wonderful and liberating moment I have had in years and years. I loved sucking his dick, running my tongue around the head and along the bottom. His moaning filled me with joy. His balls and sac are smaller than mine so when I was licking them I was able to suck the whole thing into my mouth and masturbate him. We kissed, cuddled, and made out some more. The third or fourth time I slide his hand over my ass toward my anus he got the hint and asked if I'd liked to be finger fucked. I jumped to my belly, wiggled my butt, and said, "Oh yes!" He was good, he's very experienced and was very gentle. He took his time working his way into a virgin ass. It was heavenly. I love being fucked!! I was selfish and had him keep it up for longer than I am sure he wanted. But oh my God it felt so wondeful!!! I'm over a lot of the hang-ups I had last year. I've discovered I'm really much more a bottom than a top. I'm happier than I've been in years. Oh, and I have a date Friday with another man from here on Affairlook. I have't seen a face pic but the full frontal nude picture of him standing there with that beautiful dick and his nest of pubic hair made me weak in the knees. I'm not where I need to be yet. But for the first time in years I feel like I'm actually headed somewhere I want and need to go. |
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Wonderful post. And even more importantly, is that you have and are able to explore what works for you. It is a huge leap to overcome ones limiting enviromental and negative social influences to allow yourself to consider any action and an even greater challenge to act on them. I bow my head in respect to you sir and sincerely hope that you find what you are looking for.
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