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I Love Her More Everyday
I Love Her More Everyday The birth of my was a moment that will never be forgotten. I had no plans to be in the room with my wife while she gave birth. I feared I was just a little too squeamish to handle it and she wanted her mom in there with her so being the great man I am I consented to let the Mother-in-law take my place. Things took a little bit of a turn for the worse though when the nurse announced she was dilated to 7. I went in the room to give her a hug and let her know I was right outside the door pacing if she needed me. As soon as I stepped in the door the nurse in there told me to leave. I told her I was just there to give my wife a hug and I was gone. She handed me a set of scrubs and told me to put them on fast then and get it done. "She is crowning." At the time I did not know what that meant so I slipped the scrubs on and as soon as I stepped inside the curtain there was my wife. Feet in the air. Sweat on her head. Eyes bulging out. A panicked looking doctor sitting between her legs on a stool. I averted my gaze and went straight for her head and bent down to give her a kiss and a hug when all at once the doctor says... "I see the head." WTF?? I am not supposed to be in here now. He tells my wife to push and the nurse says... "Mr. Bardi please quit choking your wife" I looked down and my hug around her neck had turned into more of a head lock of epic proportions. She was trying to lean forward and push and I had her pinned for the three count. I stand up and take her hand and I glance at her and for the first time I actually saw her for the demon she really turned out to be. Eyes rolled in the back of her head. Some kind of strange guttural noises coming from the back of her throat. Teeth gnashing, nostrils flaring... I thought, DAMN !!!! I can't believe I actually fucked that. I think we need an exorcism here.... I quickly averted my gaze and noticed the wall sconce lamp. It had dust on the top. I was not amused that my was being brought into the world in a hospital that could not dust the freaking wall sconces. The doctor says.. "Ok one more big pu......." He hadn't even gotten the word push out of his mouth when I head a very wet plop hit the floor. As soon as I heard it my knees buckled, I closed my eyes and forced myself to breathe. The room was swimming and I knew I was fixing to pass out. I grabbed at the dusty wall sconce and somehow managed to not lose consciousness. Barely. I remember the nurse saying my name like she was a million miles away and slowly the voice got closer and closer until I was back among the living. She then handed me my and she was the color of a dark red kidney bean. No one told me this part about a baby born a month early. All I know is she was bald, dark reddish brown, and the most beautiful thing I had ever seen. The wet splat on the floor I heard that almost made me pass smooth the fuck out? Later that night the nurse told me the story. The doctor was panicked because my was coming to fast and he was not prepared for such a fast delivery. When she popped out he had her but right behind her was all the gory nasty stuff it takes to make a baby. The placenta.. After birth.. what ever you want to call it. The doctor was passing my off to the nurse when this huge mass of *shudder* come flying out at him. He tried to grab it but is slipped through his fingers and splatted on the floor. The nurse said it slid across the floor and stopped right against my shoe. She also said that she was praying to God, and all the Saints, and everything holy that I did not look down. They all knew I was one split second away from fainting and if I would have seen what was at my feet I would have been a goner. But my was born that day. My perfect, beautiful, sweet, soft hearted, little piece of me took her first breath that day and made me the happiest man in the world. I actually relived her birth in my head while we were in Florida. Its the first time she has been an watching her play in the Gulf and seeing her all smiles for 4 days did my heart good. I have several that look to me as a daddy but she is my only biological . If I never do anything else right again, I did do that right. I had a dream my life would be So different from this hell I'm living So different now from what it seemed Now life has killed the dream I dreamed RAInBow |
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What an uttelry wonderful post... Thank you for sharing xxx
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ICD, Awe what a lovely sweet funny way of telling of her birth. Smiles are you for being squimish. Glad you were still there for her delivery. I think every father should be there. Org.
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3/15/2009 7:45 am |
Funny but very heat warming, gets me to thinking of my three kids that I haven't seen in 45yrs since they were 18 months old. Thak you Sir.
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What an uttelry wonderful post... Thank you for sharing xxx I had a dream my life would be So different from this hell I'm living So different now from what it seemed Now life has killed the dream I dreamed RAInBow
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ICD, Awe what a lovely sweet funny way of telling of her birth. Smiles are you for being squimish. Glad you were still there for her delivery. I think every father should be there. Org. I had a dream my life would be So different from this hell I'm living So different now from what it seemed Now life has killed the dream I dreamed RAInBow
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Funny but very heat warming, gets me to thinking of my three kids that I haven't seen in 45yrs since they were 18 months old. Thak you Sir. I had a dream my life would be So different from this hell I'm living So different now from what it seemed Now life has killed the dream I dreamed RAInBow
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Actually, my daughter will be 13 in July. I have decided that it is time for me to do more stuff with her. I have about 5 years left to make plenty of good memories for her until she may be out on her own. I had a dream my life would be So different from this hell I'm living So different now from what it seemed Now life has killed the dream I dreamed RAInBow
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She actually read it already. In my desire to be a published writer I printed it out (before I added the demon part) I had a dream my life would be So different from this hell I'm living So different now from what it seemed Now life has killed the dream I dreamed RAInBow
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Very nice. It's good to know that she was able to read this and knows that her dad really loves her. Thank you for sharing it.
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I literally loved this story! wow --I laughed out loud and had the warmest thoughts for the child of such a loving father. Now, the wife--poor soul lol I wonder if she has read this! I'm not for sure if she would have liked it or not. I guess it would depend on her sense of humor. Honestly, I loved it!! Havent read a blog here so far that would top this one! Yes, Ghost writer you have my attention. Thanks again! There must be more....
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And having seen said daughter in the past it is apparent that she loves her dad just as much as he loves her. Have tongue, will use it. Repeatedly.
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3/15/2009 12:55 pm |
I always said the one thing my ex and I did right was our kid ~~ so I know just how you feel. I love this story ~~ and laugh every time I read it. I can just see the greenish cast to your skin as you clutch that dusty wall sconce ~~ Butterflies are free...so am I
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Bard, A great post !! Roared with laughter at your honesty of squeamishness ... but, when you really do not know what to expect ... it is totally understandable . I have been present, and assisted in a few births ... it is, a truly awesome moment, in the miracle of life. I am delighted, that you were present at the birth of your daughter ... and, that special bond that you have with her ... may it continue to bloom, grow and flourish. I can empathize with your sentiment of being a Dad to many ... but, having done the "right" thing by your daughter. I have done the former, but, never been blessed with the opportunity to do the latter . I envy you . I've always been intrigued with your musings ... Love your "new style" and your tongue in cheek humour ... and, your ability to laugh at yourself. I, for one, wish you well in your endeavours to become a published author. Live long, and prosper my friend ... thank you, for heeding your "wake up" call ... our world has need, of more like you . If you are able to, make each day, the very best that you can !! Much love, to you and yours, Edward. I won't argue with my inferiors ~
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love this post...omg i laughed so hard ,i felt your dizzy spell ...i heard the plop but most of all i heard your heart sing!!!! life at its best my friend..life at its best!!!!
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I remember when I popped out and skidded across that kitchen floor, and I ain't been right since. At least I got an excuse; eh? Solar...
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Very nice. It's good to know that she was able to read this and knows that her dad really loves her. Thank you for sharing it. I had a dream my life would be So different from this hell I'm living So different now from what it seemed Now life has killed the dream I dreamed RAInBow
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I literally loved this story! wow --I laughed out loud and had the warmest thoughts for the child of such a loving father. Now, the wife--poor soul lol I wonder if she has read this! I'm not for sure if she would have liked it or not. I guess it would depend on her sense of humor. Honestly, I loved it!! Havent read a blog here so far that would top this one! Yes, Ghost writer you have my attention. Thanks again! There must be more.... Please come visit again soon and by all means consider a blog of your own. I had a dream my life would be So different from this hell I'm living So different now from what it seemed Now life has killed the dream I dreamed RAInBow
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And having seen said daughter in the past it is apparent that she loves her dad just as much as he loves her. I had a dream my life would be So different from this hell I'm living So different now from what it seemed Now life has killed the dream I dreamed RAInBow
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I always said the one thing my ex and I did right was our kid ~~ so I know just how you feel. I love this story ~~ and laugh every time I read it. I can just see the greenish cast to your skin as you clutch that dusty wall sconce ~~ I had a dream my life would be So different from this hell I'm living So different now from what it seemed Now life has killed the dream I dreamed RAInBow
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Thank you. I am feeling much better. I finally got over being scared and returned to working last night. I pulled an all nighter doing the carpets in a Books a Million with basically no pain at all so I guess I am doing quite good. I had a dream my life would be So different from this hell I'm living So different now from what it seemed Now life has killed the dream I dreamed RAInBow
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I would love for you to teach me a few things I had a dream my life would be So different from this hell I'm living So different now from what it seemed Now life has killed the dream I dreamed RAInBow
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Bard, A great post !! Roared with laughter at your honesty of squeamishness ... but, when you really do not know what to expect ... it is totally understandable . I have been present, and assisted in a few births ... it is, a truly awesome moment, in the miracle of life. I am delighted, that you were present at the birth of your daughter ... and, that special bond that you have with her ... may it continue to bloom, grow and flourish. I can empathize with your sentiment of being a Dad to many ... but, having done the "right" thing by your daughter. I have done the former, but, never been blessed with the opportunity to do the latter . I envy you . I've always been intrigued with your musings ... Love your "new style" and your tongue in cheek humour ... and, your ability to laugh at yourself. I, for one, wish you well in your endeavours to become a published author. Live long, and prosper my friend ... thank you, for heeding your "wake up" call ... our world has need, of more like you . If you are able to, make each day, the very best that you can !! Much love, to you and yours, Edward. One thing I have learned over the years is that anyone with a dick can be a sperm donor but it takes a man with heart to be a daddy. I am sure that the children you have been a Daddy too love you just as much as if you had been the actual sperm donor. I had a dream my life would be So different from this hell I'm living So different now from what it seemed Now life has killed the dream I dreamed RAInBow
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They are indeed MrsR. The joy on her face as she saw and experienced the "ocean" (we were on the gulf side of Florida) for the first time just took me back alost 13 years to her birth. Even in this world she still has an innocence about her that is refreshing. I had a dream my life would be So different from this hell I'm living So different now from what it seemed Now life has killed the dream I dreamed RAInBow
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I feel ya Soy I had no intention of being in that room either but fate stepped in and let me know that I was not always the driver.. After being in there I know I would not change it if I could but were I ever to become a father again I am not so sure I would... I had a dream my life would be So different from this hell I'm living So different now from what it seemed Now life has killed the dream I dreamed RAInBow
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love this post...omg i laughed so hard ,i felt your dizzy spell ...i heard the plop but most of all i heard your heart sing!!!! life at its best my friend..life at its best!!!! I had a dream my life would be So different from this hell I'm living So different now from what it seemed Now life has killed the dream I dreamed RAInBow
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