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Heart Attacks Changes Bitter Bastard
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Heart Attacks Changes Bitter Bastard A couple people wondered what my little heart attack might change in my life. The ones of you that know me well know that for the past several months I have been struggling with the fact I lost my humour. I could no longer see the humour in life anywhere. Everything, and I do mean everything, seemed to stress me out. Work. Bills. . Politics. Relationships. Deadlines Them Fucking Assholes Doing 45 In The Fast Lane. Them Fucking Assholes Doing 45 In The Fast Lane. ooops I already mentioned them but them fuckers deserve 2 mentions. When the ambulance got to my house I refused to let my see me be carried out. Audrey and my helped me to my feet and I stumbled to the gurney and laid down and said come on guys let roll. They loaded me in the bambalance and hooked me up and I had a pulse rate of 35 and no blood pressure. I was still thinking I had a tear in my esophagus when paramedic1 said yep, heart attack. Thankfully they got one IV started before my veins completely collapsed. Heart attack, Ok. Pulse Rate holding steady at 35. Blood pressure un-readable, veins collapsing... Thats when it hit me. I refuse to die frowning at the world. I refuse to die a bitter, bitchy, middle aged coot. If I am checking out I am checking out with a smile on my face and people laughing with me. I was the class clown in grade school, I was the class clown in high school, I was the class clown in college, hell, when I first started blogging I was the class clown in blogville. I spent 44 years being the class clown and somewhere along the last year or so I fucked up and started taking life serious. I will be posting a few of the more comedic things that I made happen in the hospital for your own enjoyment if you choose to read them, but let me just say this; The people that treated me over my 4 day stay will never forget me. I was the class clown in the Cardiac Intensive Care Unit too and it felt damn good for a change. My new motto on life: Ain't none of us getting out of here alive so we best enjoy what time we have while we have it. There will be time for bitching and moaning when the breathing is over. Right now I am trying to visit everyone's blog that wished me well and thank them for their support. You all will never know just how much it meant to me to read all the comments when I got home.  I had a dream my life would be So different from this hell I'm living So different now from what it seemed Now life has killed the dream I dreamed    RAInBow |
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Bard, get yourself a Blackberry or iPhone with internet service so you can read your well wishes in the hospital the next time you have a heart attack, alcohol poisoning, a stroke or get run over outside a barroom. Make yourself a bucket list, and go do EVERYTHING on it!
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Bard, get yourself a Blackberry or iPhone with internet service so you can read your well wishes in the hospital the next time you have a heart attack, alcohol poisoning, a stroke or get run over outside a barroom. Make yourself a bucket list, and go do EVERYTHING on it! Enjoy life and the people in it. No one is all bad. Everyone has some good somewhere. Everyone. I had a dream my life would be So different from this hell I'm living So different now from what it seemed Now life has killed the dream I dreamed RAInBow
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Thanks Silver. That is just the fact in my little world now. I would reccomend everyone try it  I had a dream my life would be So different from this hell I'm living So different now from what it seemed Now life has killed the dream I dreamed RAInBow
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i am so glad you got your humour back ...just promise me you will not BLOG about poo ...  i am happy your in fine form my friend yes enjoy evey day to the fullest!!!!we deserve that....we do!!!!   []   Seduce my mind and my body
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3/4/2009 7:48 pm |
I agree 1,000%!!!!!!! It's one reason I live my life the way I do these days. I ain't gettin' no damned younger so I'd better enjoy it while I can ~~ glad to see you blogging again, and glad to hear a smile in your "voice". Butterflies are free...so am I
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3/4/2009 7:50 pm |
Them Fucking Assholes Doing 45 In The Fast Lane Oh yeah ~~ they deserve at LEAST two mentions ~~ fuckers. Butterflies are free...so am I
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i am so glad you got your humour back ...just promise me you will not BLOG about poo ... i am happy your in fine form my friend yes enjoy evey day to the fullest!!!!we deserve that....we do!!!! Dang that was my next three posts !!!  I had a dream my life would be So different from this hell I'm living So different now from what it seemed Now life has killed the dream I dreamed RAInBow
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You be special Bardi....go ahead...make me laugh!!!  I make mistakes, I am out of control & at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best. ~Marilyn
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You be special Bardi....go ahead...make me laugh!!! I had a dream my life would be So different from this hell I'm living So different now from what it seemed Now life has killed the dream I dreamed RAInBow
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3/4/2009 9:52 pm |
Glad to see the old bard back. Stress is a bitch so they tell me I gave it up for lent years ago. You take care son.
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Blog about poo? Does she have you confused with the kiwi? Man, I'll have to dig up the links for those posts ...Have tongue, will use it. Repeatedly.
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Glad to see you back with us! 
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3/5/2009 1:01 am |
I enjoyed the connection you made with being a class clown all through your life, lost the edge and then regained it. I love it when danger and life collide - it has the potential to make us more spontaneous, freer and alive. I'm so relieved for you that you're recovering and happy too that you've had an insight and changed your life around. 
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Well with a better blood flow one could assume that at least my sex life will get better. I had a dream my life would be So different from this hell I'm living So different now from what it seemed Now life has killed the dream I dreamed RAInBow
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I agree 1,000%!!!!!!! It's one reason I live my life the way I do these days. I ain't gettin' no damned younger so I'd better enjoy it while I can ~~ glad to see you blogging again, and glad to hear a smile in your "voice". I had a dream my life would be So different from this hell I'm living So different now from what it seemed Now life has killed the dream I dreamed RAInBow
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Them Fucking Assholes Doing 45 In The Fast Lane Oh yeah ~~ they deserve at LEAST two mentions ~~ fuckers. I had a dream my life would be So different from this hell I'm living So different now from what it seemed Now life has killed the dream I dreamed RAInBow
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Glad to see the old bard back. Stress is a bitch so they tell me I gave it up for lent years ago. You take care son. I had a dream my life would be So different from this hell I'm living So different now from what it seemed Now life has killed the dream I dreamed RAInBow
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Blog about poo? Does she have you confused with the kiwi? Man, I'll have to dig up the links for those posts ... Maybe I should just repost it??? No get Bulge too I had a dream my life would be So different from this hell I'm living So different now from what it seemed Now life has killed the dream I dreamed RAInBow
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Not to worry M'Lady. I am normally too busy to blog like I would like to so I know the feeling of missing out on certain things. I appreciate your wish and I can promise you that this one will come true. I had a dream my life would be So different from this hell I'm living So different now from what it seemed Now life has killed the dream I dreamed RAInBow
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Thanks shay. Your comment warmed the cockles of my heart. Not sure exactly what the cockles of my heart are but they are definately warmed.. I had a dream my life would be So different from this hell I'm living So different now from what it seemed Now life has killed the dream I dreamed RAInBow
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Glad to see you back with us! I had a dream my life would be So different from this hell I'm living So different now from what it seemed Now life has killed the dream I dreamed RAInBow
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I enjoyed the connection you made with being a class clown all through your life, lost the edge and then regained it. I love it when danger and life collide - it has the potential to make us more spontaneous, freer and alive. I'm so relieved for you that you're recovering and happy too that you've had an insight and changed your life around. I had a dream my life would be So different from this hell I'm living So different now from what it seemed Now life has killed the dream I dreamed RAInBow
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Later that night when they transferred me to a better hospital in a bigger town I called shotgun. The bastards still made me ride in the back. I had a dream my life would be So different from this hell I'm living So different now from what it seemed Now life has killed the dream I dreamed RAInBow
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I'm happy to hear you're doing better... and have regained humor!! It's lifesaving! Be well and take good care!
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DP... I used to think that life was just a bowl of cherries. Now, I know it is. But, it's a lot harder to get my hands on the fresh ones. Since they've invented plastic surgery for pussies, I can't tell... just by feelin' around in the dark.  Solar...
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