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Next... What do you do when you’re mind wakes from oblivion and you find that you have missed out on life; not on all of it, but some part of it that matters for sure? What do you do when the time lost can not be equaled by time spent wisely, for there is no way to regain time, to get more, or to ever, in any way, make up for loss of any kind. We search for answers to questions we don’t even know we have, driven by that internal clock whose gears turn for reasons even unbeknownst to us. For those unable to give up or give in it can be torturous to sit listening to the speakers on full blast never able to control anything, even to the degree with which “control” once existed. It can feel like a millennium waiting for the room to stop spinning and it’s never really the things we expect that stop the free fall and lead to tunnel vision-like clarity It can be a kind word, that gorgeous smile that lights up a room, or maybe even just newly found perspective that drives us toward a desire and knowledge that there are greater things which can trump the noise. Where does one turn then to fill the previously pointless future now with the force of desire but lacking the purpose of direction required to move forward. What makes a difference? What is worth the effort? What is worth the time? Already knowing how fleeting life, love, and happiness can be it’s hard to find what should or even does come next. Although I would never presume to absolutely know the minds of others or the ends off all things, the answer, I think, lies in the simple truths because really all of the complexities are just illusions. For all those with whom this strikes a chord, you have already realized that the doors opened by disillusionment offer more than the perceived pain and loss presented at face value. They provide opportunities. And, though I don’t know their end I am constantly and unavoidably presented with the options that always seem to boil down to one choice because I simply am who I am. In the end we find we are in fact the key holders; a truth we thought we knew to begin with, but were wrong about all the same. The power to turn the key comes not from our ability to force it but by our wisdom to put one foot in front of the other instead willing to bow to whatever force comes our way. It’s not defeat as some would see it, but the ability to transcend through acceptance, love, and understanding. The “newly” acquired knowledge that there is no control, no correct answer, no route to plan, no found, won, or discovered perfection directs us to the understanding that there is only our true self who already knows the answers to all things and is only awaiting the forks in the road to see them and realize the paths that are set before us all along.  Hope you can't help but find happiness, and pain can't find you even with help! Check out my blog and give me a look loves hokietiger  |
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