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A very good friend, who's also very wise often says "It's better to keep your mouth shut and allow everyone to think you're stupid, than to speak and remove all doubt." (or something like that) I often agreed with that quote, I liked it, it sounded so wise and profound! Life would soon teach me, that not only is it very wise and profound... but that it's also very hard to do when it's really necessary, when you're upset, or mad... When it really matters! So, I lost my temper, and I lost the filter that's somewhere between my brain and my mouth, and I removed all doubt!! And the worse thing is, that people I really respect and care about got hurt... and they weren't even involved. I've apologized, they said they accepted my apology... but come to find out, they just said that but have clearly expressed to someone that they will never forgive me... that things will never be the same. I'm at a loss... and I don't know what to do, or if there's anything that can be done. You see... I don't want them to have that impression of me, it was something that was said out of anger and aggravation, it didn't come from my heart... in my right mind, I would NEVER disrespect them in any way whatsoever! What's worse, is that "they", are related to someone I love very much... someone who I really don't want to lose... and because of that, they don't want this person to have any association with me... so, unfortunately, this person is in the middle of everything, feeling as if he has to make a choice... and well, compared to his family... I'm really no one important. I don't want him to have to choose, not only because I know I'll lose, but because I've been in that position many times... it's not something I want anyone to have to deal with... I want to make things right again, and I know that a simple "I'm sorry" may not be enough, but how can I? When I apologized, they all said it was fine, it was forgotten! Now, it turns out that it's not forgotten... so why would they said that it is then?? to be polite? to get me out of their hair?? to not deal with the issue at hand?? I don't even know how to react to that! I'm used to having people tell me things how they are... bluntly, straight to the point! Why couldn't they just say, "You know what? It's not ok, I can't, won't, don't feel like forgiving you right now, and maybe I never will."?? THAT I can deal with, but don't tell me things are ok if they aren't! Anyway, I guess I just don't know what to do, or say... or even what to think! I guess you can say, I'm lost... and looking for someone, on the outside, to provide me with some form of wisdom here. I guess this comes to show you that you can tame a tiger, but you can't tame a tongue... Have you ever been in a position like this? What did you do? Do you ever tell someone you're ok with them when you know you're not? What would you do if this was you? You got any other advice, opinions, wisdom you'd like to share? ~*~ Mistress Nessa ~*~ (Originally Posted Jun 9, 2007 2:09 pm)  |
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