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I've never been a very religious person. But here, after losing my , I've begun to wonder a lot of things. I wonder if it's true what they say... that he's watching me, or watching over me... I wonder if people can actually contact the dead. I've had experiences before... but I rather not talk about those... What I want to talk about, or rather share, is what happened to me today. Simply because, I don't know if it really happened, if it was my imagination, if I'm going crazy, or if it was some type of sign. This morning, I decided to make breakfast, I haven't made breakfast like that since before my passed... anyway, my room mate picked up my , she had went to a sleep over and she had to be picked up early and my room mate picked her up. Anyway, when she got home, I was still cooking, trying to get everyone's breakfast all set up for everyone, my room mate walks into the kitchen, and I don't see my , so I ask for her, then I look to the hallway... between all the people that were in the kitchen... standing there in the hallway, is my ... with his short spiked hair, his big beautiful eyes, his gorgeous smile... looking at me the way he always did when he was waiting for me to finish cooking something he liked. I almost dropped whatever it was I was holding, I think I even said "oh my god!"... people moved around in the kitchen, and blocked my view for an instant, when I was able to see across the room again, it was my standing there. I can't say I wasn't happy to see her, but even though I know it's not possible... for a brief moment, my life... my heart was whole again. Now that I think about it, I wonder how could I be so stupid to even consider for a minute that he'd be standing here, and why? why would I believe it? even if it was for that small amount of time? I mean, it's not like he's lost, it's not like I don't know what happened to him, like there's even a small chance that one day somehow, some way I'll find him. After he passed away, I went to the doctor because I began getting very sharp chest pains... my doctor did tests and all that... she couldn't find anything... she said her diagnose was, I was heart broken. Now, I'm seeing him? I think I'm going crazy... I've never believed in aliens, or ghosts, or heaven or hell... but at this point, I don't know what to believe, so I have to ask... What do you believe? ~ Nessa ~ |
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11/2/2008 5:46 pm |
The day after my mom left this world my daughter and i were driving out to my sisters and she said " Mom look both grandma's are sitting up on that cloud." I then asked her which grandmas and she told me grandma Pat and the brown haired grandma... Now the thing is my daughter probably only saw my moms mom maybe 3 times.. when she was very young and when this happened she was 4 years old at the time. A lot of people say that they will contact you through your dreams.. Both of my sisters have experienced this. My younger sister seems to have some kind of spirit that follows her a lot. Or did until she got baptized.. Now he is gone... So i'm guessing he wasn't a good spirit... I'm going to be honest with you here and let you know that i believe what you saw was real sweetie... I dont know about contacting the dead or trying too... to me to many doors can be opened but i do believe that if they come to you.. look at it as a good sign.. To me it means they are ok and they are letting you know it hon... hugs and i'm here if you want to talk.. Jenny
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1 post 11/2/2008 10:44 pm |
I don't believe in ghosts, but I have had many Deja Vu experiences. I have been in several situations that were exactly like a dream I had had a few days before. Right down to every detail. So there is something spiritual out there. I have to believe that because I can't believe that we exist then die to nothing. I am sure the energy of your son's life is around you and will always be there.
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I do believe in ghosts, I think you know that about me. My granny's spirit is around me all the time since she passed, watching over me. Seth was a sweetie and adored by all, and Nessa from the sounds of it I think maybe this was his way of saying he was glad you were back to doing such things as cooking breakfast for everyone. I still remember how excited he was when the big breakfast was cooked when I was there with you all. And I remember how he loved seeing you happy. That's why I say I think it's his way of letting you know he's still with you in spirit and even though he can't be there physically he is happy you are slowly moving forward in life. Miss ya, Fuzzy ~~Fuzzy~~
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Nessa - he is there with you, you will see him, you always will, it is your sons way of letting you know that he is still around, that he is alright, that he is thinking of you, that you and he are always connected, that he is your son, you are his mother and that the bond, although physically broken, is not spiritually broken. He is in the same place as my dear Katherine, and they are happy in the knowledge that we are continuing on with life, honouring them and that we are allowed to be happy as they would want nothing less for us. I'll contact you thru email, we need to talk, I need to help you with the grief that you feel and although you will not believe this at this point in time, the grief does give way to thoughts and feelings of joy and happiness and these are not emotions that dishonour their memory, in fact these are emotions that they will bring to us. God bless M The shadows cast into the day and are an extension of the soul
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Nessa, I am a fate believer. I believe that things will be the way they are supposed to be. I do not question, I have never felt I should. When I lost my 1st husband 20 years ago, for the first year that he was gone I smelled carnations all the time. These were the only flowers that he ever bought me - Carnations. In time, I smiled when I smelled these flowers. They were comforting, soothing. You are not crazy and I do believe that we have extra angels watching out for us when our loved ones pass away. It was him Nessa, soothing your broken heart, even though it was only a moment. Don't question it, just let your heart smile with the memory. Keep your chin up. BehindMyBlues
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