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Every Cloud Has A Teary, Snotty Lining
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Every Cloud Has A Teary, Snotty Lining Every Cloud Has A Teary, Snotty Lining I am happy here. Happy with my new apartment, working towards new goals, creating a new life with new plans for the future. My lover wrapped around me post coital...... skin to skin I feel warm I feel wanted I feel loved I feel DESIRED A text from D comes through the crackberry telling me he misses me. That the cats miss me and they miss the other cats. They are acting needy and out of sorts. (We divided the furries 2 to each home) Then saddens overtakes me Breaks Me Makes me Cry My happiness turns into an ache. My eyes swell..... a lump in my throat sniffles Where does the intensity go when it stops being an intense love and just becomes love. Seems to me that it just becomes sadness.... Don't get me wrong, I have NO regrets. It's just that every time I think I am through the grieving process, there is still just a little more crying to be done. I am lucky, I have someone to wipe my tears. I cry even more when I think of D home watching TV alone with sad cats. and I wonder how my lover feels watching me cry for my past. understanding as he is....it still has to suck. I know he's afraid to let go and relax into me being with him. Somehow I have manage to hurt us all... D My Lover Me (and apparently the friggen cats) FUCK.....it just sucks that sometimes love is NOT enough! Whose the the bright fucker who started that false truth. BLAH  |
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4/1/2010 7:52 pm |
It gets easier Cassy, but you already know that ...hugs...
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Now we're see'n some bloggin. Cass, you're tough, forge ahead trooper The preceding comment was inspired by my ner'do'well fwb who is totally without decorum of grace 
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Thanks Multi, Herm and Maxi..... sucks at times though
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hey cass, moments are moments that will pass - thank gawd for that! Come leave me some thoughts forujules I'd love to read them~xo~
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true Dat Jules
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10/9/2019 5:56 pm |
Love the title.
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Multi
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