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My Trans Sexuality.
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My Trans Sexuality.  I have wanted to write about my personal sexuality for a long while... will be working on this piece the coming days... Note: I don't consider sodomy or slut to be bad words. Duh ! Happy Labor Day weekend. (2nd draft) Writing this is bringing clarification of my thoughts on my sexuality. I am searching for aggressive, confidant, sophisticated, masculine passion. I am through with the complacency of men regarding my emotional needs for social acceptance when seeking companionship. Masculine timidity is an oxymoron I can no longer let into my life, hardly an aphrodisiac, actually a repellent. I am weary catering to a guy's adolescent curiosities about a transsexual girl. I am a very proud, somewhat exotic creature. I am not available to timid, pussy boy, self hating, closet cases. They can go jerk off or perhaps 'enjoy' the unknown flesh at the shame house glory hole, in the stale, cum stinking, sticky floored, adult bookstore. I have zero interest, if not overt contempt, in half heart creeps seeking my affections. These are strong feelings, not based in anger or hostility... they are based in the virtue of honesty that my life has demanded of me. Self centered men, socially manipulated by their own bigotry, hypocritically seeking my time thoroughly disgust me. The new me does not settle. I love myself, I love what my life has bloomed into...I have learned to be patient, with myself and the world of possible sex partners. I love my sexuality. I express it in every little aspect of my life. From what I eat, how I exercise, how I groom my body, how I dress, how I rest... all to be the most attractive version of myself I can be. I love feeling confident, and am very, very highly sexed. I am always extremely horny, it is a new, raw and very exciting energy in my newer life. To be blunt, I love attracting BIG, ASSERTIVE, CONFIDENT COCK ! My honest sexual objective is being a very memorable exquisite slut. I am reading a book called "The Ethical Slut", about consciously managing my non stop, embarrassing desire for men in a healthy way. I truly want at this time of my life to be an extraordinary piece of ass, a technician of sexual pleasure beyond compare. I seek companionship with men secure enough to accept and appreciate this about me. I love meeting and enjoying people, but truly live for the moment when things are right and the conversation gets awkward, eyes lock... and a man makes his moves on me. I love the emotional aspects of surrender to male strength and virility. I thrill at being kissed and kissing back, being undressed, feeling eyes and hands roam all over my body. My breasts being presented for my lovers pleasure, my nipples are ALWAYS erect. I love being caressed through my panties... which are likely wet with my anticipation. I'm a very friendly girl, and of course I am stroking and massaging my guy, feeling his cock through his trousers... if he is not getting out of his clothes I am helping and encouraging that matter. There it is, the object of my desire and affection, my dreams, my drives, my subtle, and not so subtle efforts in life. My reward and my deepest passion, a beautiful penis. If it is not erect, I will happily make it so. But I marvel, and admire a glowing, hot, erect dick, standing proud, blood coursing through it... my lover anticipating my desire to worship his intimate treasure. I truly savor this instant of having my trophy prize revealed to me. I love eye contact during the entire sexual event, at this time love to look deep into my lover's eyes, and silently 'voice' my enthusiasm. I love being on my knees before my lover to orally engage his penis. Eye level, looking up at his face really turns me on. Grabbing and squeezing the base of his cock, moving it... I love to lick his scrotum, and suck on his balls... kiss his thighs and groin... slap his cock on my face... and finally onto the bed of my tongue... I love to hesitate here... look into his eyes, my hot breath bathing him. Finally wrapping my lips around his cock's head... working my tongue on it's underside. I savor the flavor, the texture... I love to feel it respond to my oral touch. I am working on my gag reflex, but love to challenge myself taking as much as I can into my throat... feel his response to my work, respond accordingly. Eyes closed focusing, learning how to make my man hard as he can possibly be... checking in visually as we go. One of my favorite oral sex games is 'edging'. Bringing him close to the edge of orgasm and deftly changing the stimulation to bring him down a bit. I find this so much fun I could literally do it for hours. I love giving head, learning about my man's unique pleasures. But guys are usually impatient and have other plans for us... I actually love being signaled to come up for a kiss... sit on his lap with that hard penis between my legs... anticipating things going where we both need and want them to go. That is usually a pretty passionate fun kiss. Something very hot about a deep kiss after you've been having oral sex, I love that anyway. I suppose things like that being unwelcome... would be strikes on my score card against welcoming the lover to get my panties off in the future. We all have that post sex evaluation. My lover needs to be open, unbridled concerned with our mutual comfort and safety. Highly feminine, I am not a woman. I have innate awareness of a penis quite simply no woman has. My summation is men are attracted to my overt feminine nature, as well as the promise of a girl that loves getting fucked up the ass. Not to mention my sincere love of sucking cock. They also have a partner in me that offers bisexual pleasures without compromising their masculinity. I share secrets with men, they usually can hardly wait to go down on me. It is so hot, gazing into a man's eyes, as I cup and massage my breasts witnessing him indulge this secret moment. I have evolved to where my own sexual center is very much anal centric, not the lovely pleasure my penis gives me. I achieve mind bending orgasms during anal intercourse- without touching my penis. My entire body shakes, with little 'aftershocks' for up to an hour. My tight, responsive bottom pulsing around my partners penis, timed with my imaginable ejaculations. Like some women, I am readily prepared for my lover to push me past this moment and on to the next orgasmic plateau. Like heterosexual lovers as well is achieving the sexual lotto of sharing an intercourse based orgasm together. Practice, practice, practice. Like many females I thrill at fucking in a broad range of positions. Prefer being guided in them my my partner. Initiating anal intercourse with a guy is my favorite validating feminine surrender... anticipating the pleasure, over coming my modest instinctive fears, hands securing me... the lubed knob of a penis glides past the gate of my cheeks, presses against my waiting hole. Exhaling, relaxing I press onto my very objective prize. It takes an instant to really relax, as my lover eases all the way into me. I love looking into his eyes, flexing tightly around his knob and shaft to let him know what he is in for. First time riding a partner is usually started with me straddling, facing him... so with him fully inside me my penis is always insanely hard and oozing. I relax and rotate my hips and begin the stroking glory, all time stops, my complete focus is on the immediate experience, with every second of intuitive sexual awareness poured into that moment. In this instant it is abundantly clear exactly why I am me. As I relax the pace of my ride quickens, my penis is swinging and bouncing cutely on my lovers stomach, sometimes I hold my gems out of the way so my visual partner can watch his cock get engorged by my very happy bottom ... I often turn an give him the reverse cowgirl, let him relax an watch the show. I love working my bottom as a mouth physically on a cock, love flexing my sphincter around the glans, the knob of a cock... just tease and work that for him- with abrupt drops all the way onto him. This type of play always wears thin, gee, did I plan it that way? It is at this point we are both plenty warmed up... and I am put in place for some serious business, and very welcome deep fucking. A bit long winded describing my intimate sexual nature. Have deleted content from below post to continue and finish My wife and I were happy for 20 years, and then we met.- Rodney Dangerfield |
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Thanks I am a super nice laid back girl. I is an honest portrayal of my passions. My sexuality is not about mating. It is for skilled sexual pleasure, and that realm of joy. I used to seek friends with an erotic context. Now I seek sex with a friendly context. I already have good friends. My wife and I were happy for 20 years, and then we met.- Rodney Dangerfield
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9/10/2011 9:14 pm |
str8 male and very hot for you yummm
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mmm, not so fast, jd, I appreciate... but believe sex has technical aptitude and developed intuition can service. I feel I am better in bed than I once was. In maturity would be alarmed by someone fumbling in passion. My 2 cents, anyway.  My wife and I were happy for 20 years, and then we met.- Rodney Dangerfield
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9/26/2011 12:15 pm |
completely agree with steff ...maybe a little long winded but very well said....Really like your blog.and just had to say Kudos...Also know you'll find a Man that will aprreciate you.This is not a plug for myself ...but will say ...I like cock myself ...but am into Transgender because i want it attached to a fem figure ..is that wird ...NOPE ....is honest and healthy if admitted to and i do not hate myself over it .P.S. Hope your vactions were fun
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