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A C word I'm coming to really dislike
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A C word I'm coming to really dislike As we all know, I love C words.....but, there is one C word I'm really learning to dislike..... And, that C word is Cancer.... And for me, it just became very, very personal...... I was diagnosed with a relatively nasty strain of Lymphoma.....The general prognosis is OK, and I've not gotten the low down or treatment plan yet.....that comes over the next couple of weeks..... So, instead of making this thread into a I'm sorry thread.....let's have a conversation about what scares us....and, if possible the reasons why.... For me, my mother went through a disastrous bout with cancer and which eventually took her life....I've always been scared of the disease and now I'll get the opportunity to face what I'm most scared of face to face.... I'm feeling that the ride will be interesting and I'll have lots of time to practice staying in the present.....which I believe is important when it comes to getting through the diagnosis, treatment and aftermath.....and, after all isn't this just what it's all about....staying present and being there for yourself and others around you.... This ride is definitely feeling like a roller coaster....And, I'm sure the ups and downs will continue through the entire process..... I also plan to stick around as long as my health allows....and, who knows, during treatment I might get so bored that I'll just have to write some treatises for all to throw rocks at...... Skier |
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In trying to answer your question, I began to separate things into irrational fears vs. rational ones and you know...almost all of them are irrational, aren't they? Yeah, I'm still [blog 1hotwahine]
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i'm with runz......i've done cancer....been intimately involved with HIV and suicides......for me the idea of having my brain erode while my body hung on is terrifying that and the idea of dying alone......... You cannot conceive the many without the one.
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you're on the energy chain my friend.......like it or not You cannot conceive the many without the one.
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I've had a lot of experience with the 'c' word in my family.. Only stating this as I feel unless it has touched you in some profound way, a family member or yourself - a person cannot totally understand how it feels.. What scared me was trying to handle my fear and also theirs.. Who can truly say what scares them.. All we know when we face this is we are afraid.. Skier I'm not going to talk about my fear with the 'C' word..as I think that fear is different with all of us..I want to say this and I so hope you understand.. I have never viewed you as a selfish person - only as a person who seems to portray strength.. But at this time, you need to become selfish.. To think mostly of YOU.. If you doubt your doctor then get other opinions..and get the best you can.. Surround yourself with people you deeply love and who love you.. Which you seem to have done.. Sometimes, due to our lives or (??) we feel we need to stand alone..To be the rock..Now is not the time for that and I'm sure you know this.. Ok, that is my two cents worth..Hope I have not overstepped my bounds..But I saw this blog and wanted you to know, people do care..Thanks for sharing this.. Loads of luck - and big 'hug'...whether you want it or not..
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Skier, just waltzing through to let you know I think of ya.. thanks for the invite..I would love to return, but not sure a person can walk back - Take care 
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Hi Skier, Just came over to give you a cup of sugar.
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Still thinkng about you -
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I'm sure thinking about it.. I do miss you and so many others...  Skier.. you didn't know you had so many admirers, did you?
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... well... I guess I'm not too late to wish you well... ... seems appropriate that I stopped by here today... although I didn't expect to find this challenging piece... but I think you know that the positive covers way more carpet then the negative... whatever that means... *shaking head* ... ... so you wanna know what scares me huh? ... well.. let me tell you... *taking big breath* ... .......................................uh ............... well...... ....... you waiting still? ... ..................................... hmmmm ....... .... ok... it's Luv...... she scares the heck outta me... lmao ... *waving hello to Luv cause I know she'll be back* .... hehe
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12/25/2008 12:11 pm |
 i hope u are doing fine today and I hope you are having a really good Christmas  [post 1811072]
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People love ya'... 'hugs' again from me..
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